| | Down on Main Street...I need to get inspired and find a new source of inspiration.
I've been re-reading all of my old blog entries from another site and it's amazing how much better (not to mention more frequently) I write when I'm depressed. A vast majority of these entries were written when I was living in Meridian, Mississippi (aka the armpit of America). I would never have actually admitted it to anyone while I was there, but I was quite clearly depressed and my writing shows it. There's a thick, melancholy tone to all of it that is undeniable (at least from my perspective). The worst part is, I really like what I wrote, but hate the conditions under which I wrote it. It feels...disturbing, I guess, on some primal level that the only thing that seems to motivate me to write my best stuff is doubt, worry, sadness and a lack of satisfaction. I don't really understand it. Probably never will, either.
In other news, watching Michael and Kristen get married was oddly therapeutic in a way that is maddeningly difficult to define. So instead of annoying all (three) of you in my attempt to explain it, know that it was simply a fantastic weekend. Amazing friends. Delicious food. Dancing with beautiful women. Not to mention seeing two of my friends happier than they have ever been. I feel lucky to have been a part of it all. There are times in one's life that are essential. Times that really define what it is all about. Seeing the lives of those two merge into one was certainly one of those times.
I should be so lucky to ever have that kind of happiness and companionship.
"He felt that his whole life was some kind of dream and he sometimes wondered whose it was and whether they were enjoying it,"- Douglas Adams |
| | Posted 1/20/2007 2:26 PM - 9 views - 0 comments
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