As Tuesday's summertime ritual is nearing its end (school is about to get back into session and with it no more Tuesday's off of work for me), I went to lunch with my friend J.  Over lunch we discussed the normal stuff (World of Warcraft - we both play, our significant others and life). 


I used to be able to answer this without a pause to think about it.  I used to know where I'd want to be in 5 years; now I am not so sure.  I really couldn't answer the question without questioning my answer so finally I said "I don't know."  It made me feel depressed.

Stress because of work has lead me doubting the fact that'd I'd like to remain in that department five years from now, let alone the company.  I used to want to work my way up through the ranks there and become more of an executive.  My problem is though (I think it is anyway) is that I am just OK in everything I do, I don't really excel in one area (hence my previous blog) and I can't figure out if that's a good or bad thing.

Because I don't really excel in any specific area, I don't know what I want to do nor do I really know my full potential of what I can do.  Sitting in a desk for 8 hours out of the day setting up invoices though is not fulfilling my potential.  I looked up on some of the popular job search sites (monster.com and jobsearch.com) but didn't see anything that interested me that I thought I'd get hired to do (with no college degree I am left at the bottom of the pool it seems).

I'd love to be able to travel at least a little.  I want to make more hourly or a decent amount salary so I can be comfortable living on my own and not struggling.  I love art and writing/typing.

I think I'll get my resume together so that I could submit it if their is a job internally in the company I'm at now to transfer out of my department, or if I see one online that looks appealing.

I leave you with this question:

I haven't looked outside to see if their was much damage around my neighborhood from the storms last night.  And my dad's house, I hope all is well (he has like 1/4 acre of just trees on the side of his house and many trees around his house in general).

My mother and I made it home just in time yesterday, I am glad we didn't leave a minute later.

Let me backtrack though.  I woke up to a nice text message from my boyfriend saying that the 'clouds looked mean'.  That's the phrase I like to use when the clouds are really dark and a strong storm is coming in (by this time I've already checked the status on the Weather Channel and am getting nervous from my mom making a deal out of it.)  Their was also a lot of lightning.

My mom stuck around a couple extra minutes to make sure it didn't get too bad as I took a shower.  I really don't know how it would have worked if it had gotten bad enough that I'd have to get out of the shower to take cover... I'd be unclothed and it'd just be rather awkward.  I made it though and when I left for work, the sun was out.

Midday, the clouds started to come back in and again the 'clouds looked mean'.  We only have one window by my department (they recently built the President of the company his personal office and conference room right where our windows were.  The only window has the Prez' secretaries desk in front of it.  But glancing out of if you could see it getting darker by the minute.  Then I could hear the rain on the roof and thunder.

I got really lucky, when I left work half day to hang out with my boyfriend again it was sunny and less cloudy.  We went out to lunch than came back here and relaxed and I put in the latest Harry Potter and we watched that.

At quarter after 4 he left and I left to go to my dad's for Monday dinner.  It's ritual; my mom and I go to my dad's for dinner.  We ate dinner and watched "The Seeker" and around 7:30 we left to come home.

We were not home for ten minutes when my mom yelled upstairs


I yelled back down the stairs while I was sitting at my computer "Why" and just as I did that, you could barely hear it I had to wait a minute before I was sure but, tornado sirens went off.

I tried to shut down my computer but it wouldn't shut down, it restarted itself and I gave up and went downstairs.  Stuck down there for 45 minutes, texting my boyfriend telling him why I logged off World of Warcraft without saying anything.

Their was 1 tornado that was about 10 minutes down the road from my house and a couple funnel clouds that could have turned into tornadoes in towns very near me.  I was left texting my family and friends that were in the path and in the middle of these storms to make sure they were alright.  Luckily no one I knew got hurt.