Xanga

well back again to xanga.

really nothing beats xanga. myspace is an extra e-mail [well 2 me] for some its like aim? hmm facebook is like school e-mail which makes it kinda gay but w/e floats ur boat.

well.

life is fine for now.

i guess ive let alot of things add up.

college projects/ finals/ family stuff and etc

ive gone to a point when college work is easy sooo easy but i just dont feel like doin it.

there is so much i can do. why waste my time in college.

tho yes college does hav its own importance but in the end just to get a job work..work..work.?

where is there time for love?

where if there time for ur free will?

will u even still hav one?

ur looks must be a certain way

ur speech must be a certain way

in the end i guess we will all be clones

but atleast let me refuse that for sometime.

sounds like a slacker eh?

i wana learn more about life and less of this world we live in.

Part [2]

at the point of my life right now

i hold no armor

no shield

nor sword

i take everything that comes to me as a stab or a blessing

because if u dont take a risk what can u gain?

Part[3]

people.

blacks/ hispanics/ jews/ etc

we want / they want equality.

and why preference that comes with the need.

we want equality but in the end its preference.

mood: believe it or not im pretty happy.

Xanga

Starting over.

edit/delete/Go.

now its matter of time to see the effects~

Xanga

back on this

this week idk what is it about it

but so much has happened

everything is just weird

i wish i was in highschool again but that isnt how things r

just keep going right?

why does everything if not many things feel so useless and meaningless and what ever that was meaningful to u slowing is being taken away from u

w/e that might be.

think about life as a sport ur force to play and u cant quit. tho u might be tired the game continues and usally when ur tired u dont do that well right? so ur team suffers that could be ur family or friends.

its weird its too much

im know im not the only one that doubts themselves and i mean that as in what im gona be in the future

and holy fuck the future is scary

idc how that makes me seem but thats how i feel

mayb is what my environment has made me fear without college without being normal

u wont hav a good life

makes it seem like death it self

over all i just feel like shit

i can feel ok somedays but inside i know there will be a tomorrow idk if it would be good or bad but i never look forward it.

people dont even try to understand cuz its just my mind going crazy

Xanga

well i havnt been on this for a while

anyway i guess i might hav another semester to work? cuz i apply for classses late and cant pay for them -.-

but yea it cool free time?

seting my life back? lol

nah just relaxing we all need that once in a while.

just this thing i found crazy video

http://194.79.31.98/badjojomedia/daily-754/11.14-2/04-2.swf

in its own way its very true and pretty sad