Got some mixed feeling this week~~ I was struggling whether I should go to Beijing to work as a helper. All participants should hand in $3000 for deposit on or this Friday. This forces me to make a decision within this week. I have two concerns. One is that the final year student seems cannot get the subsidies and need to pay all the expenses ourselves. However, after getting the clarification from Chris, I am reassured as we can withdraw those $3000 if this is the case. Another is that it may late to start to find a job in September but friends around me has got the job already. Also, it seems that some government jobs will have vacancy and post to the net on April so that I may give up those chances. This makes me hard to make the choice and I had no mood to study my S&M tests. My father thinks that it was a valuable chance and supports me to go. I feel warm and touching somehow. Although many of my friends chose to turn down for it, I finally made up my mind and paid those $3000. I really want to go abroad and experience the life. I really want to take this chance to broaden my horizon. Last year, I was forced to give up oversea placement. I don’t want to miss this one. I hope I can have a happy ending for my school life before starting working all day long. Although in this stage I still cannot confirm whether I can go Beijing or not, just tried to be optimistic, anyway. Sometimes if you concern too much , you can do nothing. Just go ahead and do what I think is good and happy^^ | 
