Happy New Year!

I hope everyone has a peaceful and prosperous 2006.

I’m going to try and write here regularly again.I had brunch with friends and we decided to get together for tarot study in a couple weeks.

On this day of new beginnings and fresh starts, I am doing some tarot and meditation with my Universal Waite deck.

Not much going on today. I found out that my book club is going to read The Red Tent, for our next discussion. I haven’t started it yet, though I have a copy. This weekend I’m supposed to be part of a panel of women in IT jobs. Our audience is going to be highschool girls. I like doing things like this. I just hope that my pain level goes down.

I finally did something I’ve been meaning to do for a few months now. I applied to be a host at BellaOnline. Wish me luck!

Its Friday, thankfully. The week was fairly ok. Pain level was high because of the cold, but I managed. I didn’t miss any work this week though it was a struggle to get up and moving. I learned some technical things about log files that were useful.

I did manage to get some writing done this week, and I hope to do more this weekend.

Most of the time I do like my job, but its not exactly what I would do if I could do anything I wanted to. I enjoy helping people, and I like working with computers. I just wish there was more variety in the types of questions I receive. I want to write and research and assist users.

Today was a day that I dedicated to my patron goddess Brighid. As I have done for the past couple of years, I spent the day at Barnes & Noble, writing, thinking and brainstorming. I always bring a bunch of things with me for inspiration. This year, I brought, my Universal Waite tarot cards, a pocket copy of Writing Down the Bones, a couple books on writing for online markets, and some photographs I had taken. Its going to take some time to process everything that went through my head today, but its a task I am looking forward to completing.

Blessed Imbolc/Candlemas/Lady Day

I unexpectedly got the day off today. I’m savoring it slowly, trying not to rush around and hurry through it. Its just a Monday, a day that I don’t have to worry about work.

I finished Holy Blood, Holy Grail, and The Woman with the Alabaster Jar. I’ve been neglecting Women Who Run with the Wolves, though. Its such an intense book. I can only read a bit at a time. I struggle with some of the concepts but not others. Wild Woman is hard for me to grasp because she is so physical and tactile.

I don’t know how to write the feelings I have about my physical self. I guess a good way to describe them is to say that I deal with my body; I know its limitations and its flaws. I also know how to minimize the the appearance of limitations by consciously avoiding certain things. I don’t drink from glasses; I drink from plastic cups and soda cans because if I drop them, I won’t have to worry about broken glass.

I don’t see the beauty in my body, though it is whole. I can accept that parts of me, like my long black hair, or my dark brown eyes are beautiful, but when I look at myself as a whole being, all I see is a bent and crooked body filled with pain.

I know its the only one I’ll ever have… I just struggle with the thoughts that it is perfect in and of itself because it is part of what makes me who I am.

Well…. its been some time since I’ve written. I can’t believe its the middle of August already.

I’m very glad that the power is back on. I was lucky to be downstairs when the power went out. That meant that I didn’t have to be carried down a flight of stairs.

I’ve actually read a current book that isn’t full of computer acronyms and screenshots  Its The DaVinci Code, by Dan Brown.

This book is the first current fiction I have read in ages. It is essentially a Grail Quest in the true sense of the word, but it is also a quest on many levels. The author did a great deal of research into DaVinci’s art and themes of the sacred feminine. He also has obviously read a good amount of the gnostic materials that are out there. He references Holy Blood, Holy Grail, and speculates on the history of the Knight’s Templar and their geas to protect the Holy Grail and to unveil it when the time is right The actual plot is rather thin, and some of the plot twists are unbelievable, but the amount of infornation about DaVinci’s art, and sacred feminine symbolism made it worth the read. Its  gotten me back to reading Grail mythos, which I have always enjoyed.

Once I finished that, I picked up Holy Blood, Holy Grail. Currently, I’m reading that, and Women Who Run With the Wolves. Both are good, though the second book is a harder read because it reaches deep inside the soul with its words.

I sing the body electric
I celebrate the me yet to come
I toast to my own reunion
When I become one with the sun

And I’ll look back on Venus
I’ll look back on Mars
And I’ll burn with the fire of ten million stars
And in time
And in time
We will all be stars

I sing the body electric
I glory in the glow of rebirth
Creating my own tomorrow
When I shall embody the earth

And I’ll serenade Venus
I’ll serenade Mars
And I’ll burn with the fire of ten million stars
And in time
And in time
We will all be stars

We are the emperors now
And we are the czars
And in time
And in time
We will all be stars

Quote of the Day:

Who lives in joy does his Creator’s will.

- Baal Shem Tov