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| my neglect of xanga has reach a high, high level...myspace is better fools!!!
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| so um yeah...i have said this often before, but this time i say it to the fullest extent of the words. fuck the air force.
that's right, FUCK the air force. due to circumstances beyond my
control, i am getting discharged from the air force, a fact that i have
kept a secret from almost everyone back home. only one person in my
family knows, and that's the way i want to keep it. i plan to get home
and surprise the lot of them, so don't any of you that know my family
go ruining the surprise. i have my packet and i've already got one foot
out the door, so sometime soon, i will once more be Mr. Gavin, and no
longer Airman First Class Gavin. thank you, that is all.
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| hey there crazies, haven't updated in a quick minute, but hey, what the hell...
got back from christmas leave yesterday, depression hit such a level
that i want only to break things and kill people. don't get me wrong,
leave was great, i loved seeing all the old friends and family and
maybe even making a few new ones. i'll say nothing to incriminate
myself, but i was definitely finding myself into this one girl by the
name of kerry on new years eve, i'm hoping to try and see her when i
get back home again, which will hopefully be for good. it's back to
school tomorrow, not that i even close to want to do so, but i really
don't even care that much. i've definitely lost all measure of
motivation to really do much of anything military related. that's all
for now, i'll keep you all posted. laters.
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| ok, so here's the deal. i'm supposed to go to denver colorado. here's
the problem, i really want to go to san antonio, because the girl i'm
kinda sorta starting to talk to, maybe start to see(we'll call her girl
A), and the girl i really
have feelings for(girl B) are both going to san antonio. here's the
problem. girl B is seeing someone, and i know she has feelings for me,
but she doesn't want to just break up with him even though he's a
douche. on the one hand, my feelings for her are kind of limiting me on
making a legit move on girl A, who is really cool and someone i really
get along with. on top of it, i can tell girl A is jealous of girl B
whenever she sees the two of us together, while girl B's boyfriend gets
jealous of me when she and i hang out, and we're friends and both
blackropes, so we hang out a lot. should i just say fuck it and get
girl B to break it off with her boyfriend, even though she leaves in
december...or should i go balls out with girl A and just try to squash
my feelings for girl B?
god damnit i feel like i'm back in highschool wanting two different girls at once.
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| started class on wednesday. already starting to not be able to pay
attention to instructor. if i fail out i get to come home, but if i
dont i'll be home either the 21st or the 22nd of december through the
2nd of january, so i'll be able to see whoever wants to see me around
then. til either of those happen, ttfn.
love,
steve
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