|
sleebi
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: john
Gender: Male
Interests: express feelings down on paper.. poems?? but can only write it when im sad or angry..:I ooh wells..,listening to music, watching the sunset, collecting jpop stuff, building models, studying theology, etc...
Expertise: Being a disciple for the Lord Jesus and living my life to the fullest for HIm neither will I forsake my Lord nor the Church
I have sworn and will confirm it, That i will keep your righteous ordinances.
Psalm 119:106
Occupation: alumni 07
Industry: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  0rd3rntruth
Member Since:
2/24/2003
|
|
SubscriptionsSites I Read
|
|
|
|
| And so I have not written in here for a longest time. However, it took me like 30 mins just for me to find this writing post section. I forgot how to use xanga. :O maybe its a good thing? who knows...
All i know is that i really need to move out. The older I get i somehow just cant stand the loud noise and its starting to be very annoying. I however, do not want to live near college students. i need the quite hours at most of the time, i need the place no alcohol and no parties especially..as well the mess. of course. As i walked everywhere outside of the complex i see too much of these things..
Another thing that makes me ponder once more.. is why do people drink? why Christians drink? especially why is there many underage drinking? especially Christians. Also why so many people drink and drive out there?
Book of Romans specially tells us to obey the government and the laws of this land. as well to present our body as Holy living sacrifice and that what Christians should be doing at all times unless it is contradicting to what the Lord says. Is drinking really all that? i dont understand why do people have to drink. People can drink some other fancy drinks and are not alcohol. but why it have to be this?
This had recent bothers me alot more and more as i am surrounded by college students. Also one thing i do not understand why some students act so immature. People should act much more mature especially if they are junior and seniors. They need to act professionally once they are seniors. i cant understand why people still act so wildly and immature.
What is happening here......... i wonder....
I really need my own place.... need to live near older people like families and old folks. Maybe through that i will get more at ease...
As of now i really need a retreat or a vacation. Need to rest my mind. Its so overwhelmingly and tired all these years...
Wrote a poem that describes my feelings..
Dark Road
Strolling along the path
The dim moonlight shines as the unknown shadows emerge
Filling the mind and heart with confusion and despair
Drifting towards the fiery depths of hell.
The body drowns slowly and withers away
Lost without a trace, where voices are screaming...
Screaming silently.
Where? Oh where is the angel of light!
| | |
| Currently still unemployed still after searching for jobs and waiting for contacts. Didn't get hired form many places. Failed the state examination with a 70% out of 10. i have to get 100% (i have to be part of the top 3% to be considered being hired.) I still have bills to pay as well.
Somehow weird thing, i am not really worried at all.
All i know the Lord will take good care of me and will provide as he has always been.
And all i know my heart and mind is missing China and its people much lately. I can't wait till the time to go there for full time ministry.
Im just hopeing i will get a job soon too so i can pay off the bills.
| | |
| And so my work place. the people knows that i am a Christian and have strong morals.
However, somehow they still trying to get me to go bars and drink and be drunk and trying to get me to curse and swear and get me look at pornography.
Too much negativity there and this is sure getting on my nerves and irritating me. One thing for sure i shall never had to worry about being drunk since drinking does not exist in my life regardless what it is and what circumstance since i dont believe in drinking at all.
Another quite disturbing to me is that two of them said they are a Christian too and say that the bible never said being drunk is wrong. They then go on saying its ok to be drunk and then go on their dad is a pastor and had taught them that.
This is what i called by false teachings there. The book of proverbs. Luke, Galations and eph talks about being drunk and what is the outcome of it.
I have no ideas where the pastor came up with this idea that being drunk is ok.
HE may be right if he says drinking is not a sin but being drunk is but somehow this sure doesn't sound right.
What a sad time this is.... If they are really true believers in CHrist then there be fruit in them however, there is no fruit in them all these years I've been working there and spending time with them..
Maybe one day they will all find GOd and realize they need Him and become true believers instead of just using the term Christian because they goes to church.
| | |
| And so another incident happen at work, supervisor did not work, so i took over, having to train like 2 new people with one other guy who been hired since last semster, who is so slow in everything he does.
So split up in 2 since i thought he can train one new person. Turns out that he encounter a fight he settles it so what he does is good, he then needs to report it back to dispatch. I got there, i found him in shock of the incident. I told him then what he needs to do he just stood there and does nothing being clueless then some random person came up to him ask him for help he still in shock. SO i took over and handle everything. Afterwards all i told him what he should do and need to do. He then took me aside gave me a 15 min talk of how much he do not appreciate my attitute towards him, my tone of voice expecially towards his peers and told me that i have show him no respect and that he could handle it if i have not intervene and would have done better. I then ask him is he still in shock and told him what does he represents and told him he been hired almost a year and i would expect a lot better from him. Good thing after like 2 mins telling me i got a call or else i will drill everything in him pointed out everything and be much harsher and making sure he gets written up for talking back to his superior.
I can care less what he says about me. BY this i counted he talk back to me with an attitude to his superior/ supervor which he have no right of doing that at all under no circumstance. He cant even handle a situation at all if he would handle it then he wouldnt pause and be clueless and be shock. How in the world he would be in shock to see a fight i wonder? fights are everywhere in the world and its so normal to happen at anytime.He cant even handle high pressure sitation and he said he wanted to be a fireman in the longrun? He is so not qualify to be one due to cant handle high stress pressure sitation. I dont even believe that he works for us representting the POlice department. If he could do a better job than me then he would be in charge instead of me, unparently he is so not quailfy for it cuz he cant handle stresful sitation well. I am very tired worked about 47 hours a week and 15 hours of those time i do not get paid due to its an internship and i get very little sleep and having to train new people everyday and taking over for the supervisor and havuing to go home much later since im in charge and needs to turn everything back in sign everyone out, etc.. and getting that talk from him with the comments just not fun nor good.
So i got in a very bad mood afterwards, In which i was about to give them a 30 min break and a 10 min break. so 2 break for the night. Since what he done to me and have that one talk with me, i gave one break and only 10 min. I however got back to my normal mood becasuse I got a free drink at the coffe place with a big smile from the girl who works there :P so then i extended the break to 20 mins instead.
Unbelieveable i say... I guess as a superior or supervisor i have to learn to be more "sensitive" I guess i will admit im wrong in not understanding people being in shock part. However, he is so not qualify to be working in this department he is so not being profesionalize after being hired for a while and cant handle highstress sitation. Too bad cant fired him for these reasoning.
Im tired, old and so need a break.. oy........
| | |
|
|
