i think im over it. this whole xanga thing has replaced deeply needed communication skills and as of the recent things on the news i have learned that communication is our key to the world. it is your line btwn. life and death, love and despair. i know technically this is a form of communication but everyone who reads this gets the abstract version of my thoughts and my real thoughts if exspressed at all are only to a few people. turns out thats the way it should be. i know who is important in my life and those people know who they are too. even those people who might not think that they are, they are, and will be. just like their other relationships maybe this one needs some time to grow and change too. is that ok? i think it will be.  but im done with all this and thats ok with me.

good night and have a pleasant tmrw.

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hood rat, hood rat, hoochie mama!

Ok, so I'm back from Spring Break and it was a blast, just like I thought it would be. I had entirely too much fun doing nothing. I definitely learned a lot more about my friends and I appreciate the opportunity. I hope everyone else had as much fun as I did even if they didn't go anywhere at all.

School has immediately begun to kick my ass. I have three BIG papers due in the near future, all of which haven't been started b/c of other assignments in said classes. I have a analytical/creative paper in Engl. then a self-eval paper in COMS, then a research paper in psych which I believe is her way to torture us slowly b/c not only is that class uber boring Im not learning anything. Work at school has also begun to pick up, we are in the middle of main advising so everyone has just now realized they need an advising appt. not like this isnt the exact same thing they had to do last semester. I swear I have met some of the dumbest people working there. ugh... This also means that I will be enrolling soon, which is turning out to be more frustration than fun. See, usually I love to enroll but this year I just know my semester is going to be difficult and I am not going to get the class times I want. But what are you going to do, I guess it just wasnt meant to be.  

TRH work however is not good at all, I put my two weeks in on Friday, called in Sunday no doubtedly pissing them off and making my last few times there really really bad. It isnt as if I dont like some of the management its just Gary whom I really dont mesh with at all. I dont care so much for the intimidation type of leadership.

Turns out that  sometimes there is just nothing to say to someone you never ran out of things to say to.

Im excited for summer, I know we still have two months but its not 3 months and thats "good enough for the boys we date"

I figure that sooner or later I will get my act together and realize that my priority list right now is a little off. For ex. I am writing in this instead of studying for my psych test tmrw. Hmm... ok so maybe I have realized it but I am still in a state of denial.

Frank the tank does an excellent "gator" 

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i miss out on one road trip and im out of the group

GOOD weekend. Started out when I took my mom to KCI for a much needed trip to Chicago for a wedding. I love that she had a chance to have a lot of guilt free fun.

Then Friday I came back to Topeka and spent some time just hanging out with myself, ran some errands, went to the mall, got my sister's bday present, which turned out really well. Later that night J and I ordered pizza and hung out, Brittany came over, and well theres enough said there, I LOVE YOU GIRL , great times. Then Daniel and Karl came over, we watched the end of My Big Fat Greek Wedding and then we saw Daddy Day Care. Funny, that was a good night. James and Brittany stayed over and then I made french toast in the morning. yummy... My sister had contest so I went with there her and she did so great, then I went out to the cabin with J and Ron brought his kids out, also good times. Then we went back and got Chinese food, yummy, then my sister and I had some sister time. I had to get up at 5 am to get her ready for her horse show and she also did great there too, what a talented girl. Sunday, I had to work at "the roadhouse" and then went home, cleaned house, J stopped by and then my sister and I ran errands and went to pick mom up. She had a really good time and I was really happy.

I love weekends like this one, really relaxed and fun.

On a not so good note I might have to drop my SPLH class which is really discouraging. It is my major and Im having a really hard time in this class. Who knows what that means. I have been told not to let this class get me down but still. I have my advising appt. tmrw morning so I will talk to Erin about that then.

But for right now I am just going to catch up on my psych notes and just chill before lunch.

"go on go on leave me breathless"

Why do bad things happen to amazing people?