heloo ...gosh life is been a lil 2 hard even though i manage to have a big smile and laugh shyt off so i broke up with tony porter at homecoming night!! why?..ya ask well i guess cause i knew it wasnt right 4 mee to keep being with himw hile i knew i had fellings and love for tina.delbianco so then i cry and cry cause then i reliaze that i shouldnt haven done that cause she turns out to have someone so yea i tell her how i feel and it all just seems to weird she once said*i wish we can just trade places 4 one week* and i guess her wish came true casue wen i was with tony she was so effin hurt but i disnt leave him 4 her until a while and so now she has someone and i feel so hurt but she is not wiling to leave her to be with mee and yes i admit that i shouldnt have left her to be with tony but i think that everone deserves a seconed chance to make things better but i dont regret bieng with tony 10-03-05 all the wasy her taught mee things that i never knew a guy kan teach a gurl he was too good 4 words but at the same time her is a senior and he knows where life is taking him and he knows wut he wants in life but mee i'm just a frshmen but see age is notin but a number its just that he wanted mee to be part of his life and i was happy to hear that but i guess i didnt noe if i was sure i wanted to be things were movin a lil 2 fast but yea i need and miss and love tina but wut kan i do but to move on i seem so stupid waiiting by the phone every night 4 her kall and crying cause i remnince about the good times we had inthe 2 months we were togther i dotn regret going out with a gurl noo sir i dont im prof to say i fell in love with tina marie delbianco see before i wouldnt have been able to say that cause i didnt want to be judged but see love is blind and ya kant make your heart choose the ones ya want to fall in love with it just happens and bieng with tony and tina9 NOT AT THE SMAE TIME but ya noe wut i mean well it  has been great to mee i learned so much from them and i wish them both great things but hey i just gotta wait 4 true love since i lost my chance with tina .................

   heloo lil kidz...well yea i was hella konfused between hella guys but now im with antonio porter(TONY) and i'm happi with him so far...so yea skool ish good so yea ima let ya guys go right now casue i dont feel like writting a whole book(lol) so yea leave alil something buhh bieez

skool ish good so far.....to many guys wana holla and shyt and they dont even get to yooh they just look at ya azz or ya boobz and than they sturt mackin but yea their is one boii who is been hella sweet and shyt but i dont like him and he keeps askin mee out day after another and i do not noe wut to sai i mean hes a hella koo homie and hes kute and shyt but i dono *sigh* but yea mi classes are good not to hard or too eazy....i sturt workin by the end of thish month toturing lil kids i guesh its good since i'm gettin paid*lol* but yea i mish HIM  i'm also starting to get over him as days go bye he is becoming the past not the future yesh i stil cry but not cause i want his love i cry cause i feel betrayed and dum i should have known it was just a game like ani other game he plays but life goeesh on BUT the sad thing ish i lost trust in so mani pplz KOMMNETS &PROPZ LIL KIDZZ

i just wish that i never had to say hello so that i wouldnt have to say goodbye you dont understand at all because 2 you it was all a game i bet in a few years or more you wont even remeber my name to mee its sad how i thought it was true and how i wasted so much time when all along she was with yooh now that it over and your with HER i'm here heartbroken and what to do i'm not so sure.......

DID YOOH NOE....

i hate rasicem

i love everi kolor

i hate shyt taklerz

i love dem true homiez

i hate waking up earlii

i love taking mi time 2 sleep till....

i hate not looking having mi hair done wen i'm leavin da house

i love make up but not alot

i hate not getting wut i want

i love having wut i want

i hate saying(NO,NEVER,I CANT,IMPOSSIBLE)

i love wroking hard to get everything and anything that i realli want

i hate gold

i love diamondz

i hate hot weather

i love the rain

i hate getting judged

i love pplz that realli get to noe mee

i hate no body

i love mi babi sis xina

i hate  ONLI dreaming

i love making it true

i love bieng  a FREEK-A-LEEK

i hate bad wordz

i love shoez

i hate payless

i love boyz

i hate bitches

i love MEE

<<<MISSING R.S.T.>>>> baby even though thigz are differnt ya will alwais be mi trule first love and i kant wait to have yooh in mi armz agian>>>>

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