chris is hott

im sad because i wanted to talk to a certain someone and they werent even online when i got home from the shittiest breakfast experience with my father ever...

i therefore conclude...my father is nothing more than a sperm donor in favor of the legalization of marijuana-yes we had that discussion in a public area during breakfast?

it kind of worried me...so does he...i feel like we're just getting further apart...
i don't know why
maybe cause i'm in pain, maybe cause i'm sick, but i just want to cry
and he's not even there for me to talk to...
i hate being sick
and i hate missing you even more...</3
why the fuck does everything have to be so fucking painful...and so fucking hard...when it comes to something as simple as just being happy?

emotions = shit

x.edit-my cat is so fucking annoying-core.x

work was really long, could've been because i didn't really feel quite that great...
my birthday is this wednesday and illinois is only 9 days away not counting today i'm so excited...and if a certain someone doesn't get online by the time 1:30am rolls around i'm going to bed...my chest feels like a fat bitch is sitting on it and won't get off, so it's hard to breathe-my throat hurts, one benefit through all this is i'm not smoking so i'll be the healthiest i've ever been for the time it takes for me to be sick and get over it...

i'm getting really impatient and really annoyed really quick...i'm extending the time to 1:45am-2:00am if that certain someone isn't online then i'm going to bed...this is the shittiest i've felt in a long time...i had to get sick 2/3 days before my birthday? wow lol

brian isn't dead which is a good thing!

my father is a lame jew...so much for being cool i hate him what else is new?

i think chris gave me what he had...i'm achey, my nose is runny, i keep blowing my nose and sneezing [not at the same time] and i feel like poop

ANYWAY my night has been interesting cingular is number one on my "10 people/cellular organizations i have to kill before i die" list...

im going to take a nap and dream of sugarplums...toxic sugarplums...bombing the cingular weireless headquarters...: ]

wow k work was gay mike stopped by that was sweet
my day...a series of little things that just kinda made me like ARGGHH frustrated oh well the weather was awesome in my opinion

i think brian died...i'm starting to miss him...

x.edit-mother fucking-core.x

October
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

does this even describe me?

school was lame

so is my computer kayti marie evans has my full permission to shoot it in the face

but i heard she doesn't like me anymore?

im sad...quite very sad indeed, i think i shall call autumn today at 4:00pm when she gets home from her funeral...sad...it's a beautiful day out the irony of burying someone on such a beautiful day...oh well luv ya kid!

ARL..i miss you...
but i know you hate me and somehow i just don't care

x.edit-fucking-core.x

it won't matter if she sees this
cause she's going to believe
what she wants to believe but
i wish she'd realize how sorry
i really am and that i truly love
her and i was so happy with
her...and now she's gone and
she doesn't really give a shit if
i care or not...i hate it that she's
so stubborn...but i love her