`nd i'm back .. it's been awhile but i'm here . before i get anywhere, it' more like before i forget .. i juss wanna say: CONGRATS TO THE C/O 2004 @ St. Lucy's ! esp. to my lil ladies que, nikki, augi, dez & kat ! it's been a long time (only 9 years to be exact .. haha) & i proud of all you lil ones ! you girls never fail to amaze me ! g0od luck in high sch0ol & i'll see you (que `nd nikki, my poly ladies! ) next year !

aww .. makes me reminisce on my days there ..  anywho .. moving on .. hmm .. s0o let's re-cap what's been really g0od in my life .. lemme think a lil bit ..yup ! i'm gettin` nothing !!  today was a really bad day for me & i'm not going anywhere tonite to make up for it .. cuz i gotta stay home ! isn't that freakin` great !? whatever tho .. i don't care .. i'm going to my homie kevin`s partaay tomorrow ( hahaha .. shake that monkey !) & that's f`sho !! o0o yeSs .. get em !! but damn .. lately, there's juss been s0o much ish for me to deal with `nd honestly .. i don't know how much more i can take of it .. even though the facial expression portrayed on the outside is juss smilin` & hidin` how i feel .. inside it's like i'm stressin` & trippen & confused .. with finals commin` up & stuff & there's s0o much more i could say but a part of me doesn't feel like puttin` it out there for tha whole world to know .. yannoe ? but for those of you who do know whussup .. i juss wanna say thanks for bein` there for me .. it means more than you know . & i would like to apolgize for my teary breakdown today .. ::sigh:: you guys know how much i hate to cry ! it just sucks cuz i feel like i've been let down .. cuz i finally put myself out there cuz i thought it would be different this time .. and it just backfired . i give up .. i don't know what else to say .. but i should've known .. i just should've known .. o0o man ! damnit i'm starting up again .. this is t0o much for me .. i'm juss gonna go . i don't have the inner strength in me to say anything more ..  

g o n e .