she's right.
i have to be strong and not keep running back, even though that's exactly what i want to do at this point.
i shouldn't be forcing what should come naturally, like i have done soo many times in the past.

it'll happen when it happens...and maybe then i'll know for sure.

i am completely broken into pieces.

but, i'm breathing.

i can do this.

i hope everyone had a good 4th of july. =)
i know i did.

lol, does anyone ever read this anymore?
come onnn, let's bring xanga back!

let's see here.

well, xanga...i'm officially out of my teen years (for almost two months now). i feel i haven't grown much since the last time i blogged (physically, i'm still 4'11 and 3/4), but i am definitely a different, (possibly) more mature adult. i have managed to keep my first job for almost two years, but i have to say its driving me insane every single day i continue to work there. i'm in college about to start my third year, one more semester and i plan on transferring out.

hmm.

i'm still with joshua . my one and only. our anniversary is coming up soon, five years in september. and yep, we'll get married someday. =))

i'll come back to this later.

so i was looking back at past entries and i realized that the way i talked freshman year is hilarious. it was like: RIL cRazY jUs LyKE diS...yo.

and well since jenny wrote in her xanga i thought that maybe i'd write in mine too...it's been months since i last wrote a REAL entry here.

well, me and the treeman are still together. 3 years and counting. not much has changed...xcept for the fact that since school got out fights rarely happen. we've been job hunting. i've been looking for my first, and his 4th or something. i'm waiting 4 express to call me and tell me whether i'm hired or not, and i've got an interview @ target nxt week. i guess i'm excited. i just want that job!

and oh yeah, i started COLLEGE. lol i dont really consider it COLLEGE college so much, cuz it's just classes. not an exciting campus, that wright.

well uh...

COMMENT and PROP! lol....haven't said that in a while...

-----EDIT-----

i got a job at express!