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Name: M
Birthday: 6/30/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: "If you are going to doubt something, doubt your limits"
I went from 190 to 150 in the year 2005. I secretly suffered through Bulimia, and endless days of counting calories and over-exersizing. I'm now self-recovering, and am finding alternative ways to keep myself fit and healthy.
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Member Since:
3/11/2005
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| The Fat One Is BackI was reading through this old weblog of mine and suddenly got nostalgic for the good ol' times of weight loss and being a runner.
things have changed a bit.
my physical activity has dropped nearly to null, leaving me feeling dull, out of shape, heavy; kind of like an amorphous blob.
i smoke now. or, at least, i did, up until last night. i finished off my last Misty 120 last night and i plan on never letting a cigarette touch my lips again.
i'm in a relationship with a guy who cheated on me last November, and i want to liberate myself, but in a way, it's almost as if there is nothing i can do. i mean, i have a phone plan with him for chrissakes. i suppose i could take my line off of his plan, seeing as how he's the main account holder, but thats not the point i'm trying to make.
i literally eat the opposite of what i used to. junk foods and junk drinks and alcohol and candies. i eat a lot of these at night, too, which isn't so good. used to be i'd have a (real) fruit smoothie for dinner and be done eating by 7pm every night.
i want to lose weight again so badly. i know i can do it if i just apply myself. the weather's still cool, even though it's going to be June in less than 24 hours. i could run outside without being too uncomfortable.
i just think i've become unhappy with the way things have been for me lately. i want a change. i want something different.
So, thats basically why I'm back here. This journal really did something magic for me, and if I can't get support for losing wight from the people around me, then I know i'll be able to get it here.
The fat one is back. | | |
| School's out and tomorrow shall start the summer weight-loss excursion for me. It's more of a continuation of last year's efforts than anything. I sort of got cut short and didn't make it to my goal weight of 140 because of school, but now that I've had a bit of off-time, I'm going to get right back into running and everything like that. Hopefuly I'll make it down to 140, or perhaps even lower than that (supposedly my "ideal weight" is 120, so we'll have to see how far I can get before school starts again)
I'M STARTING A NEW XANGA FOR A (fairly) NEW BEGINNING.
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<3 sofg | | |
| I woke up two pounds lighter today than I was a week ago.
CW: 154.5  | | |
| Summer break starts in 19 days for me, which means that I onlyhave to wait 19 more days until I can start a training routine for the summer. Running, biking, dieting. Yes, I'm doing it all over again. I had hoped that, in leaving home and going away to school, I was going to settle back into a normal eating routine, but I haven't. I'm still scared of food and of gaining weight.
So, I'm going to pick up running again once I've moved back home for the summer. Hopefully I'll be able to achieve my goal of running a mile in under 7 minutes and 30 seconds. It's not such a lofty goal, I don't think; I ran a 7:47 less than a year ago, I can do it again this year, if not better.
My weight, as of this morning, is 156.5. I was around 151 at the beginning of the school year (august 29), got all the way back up to 167 during th winter, and am now slowly shedding the pounds again. I've stopped drinking coffee every day, I rarely drink diet coke, I avoid things with zero-calorie sweeteners (because they're so harmful) and I drink 16-20 cups of water a day. I've also gone pollo-vegetarian. I take vitamins daily, hardly eat sweets or high-fat foods, and have more than the reccomended daily amount for both fruits and vegetables.
I haven't eaten pizza in over 4 months, nor have I eaten ice cream or brownies in nearly that long, as well.
So, I don't know why I still feel so unhappy with myself. I want to lose more weight, grow my hair, get better skin. Why am I so criticial of myself?
I'll be back again, with the whole calorie-counting, exercise-documenting scheme. It's going to be just like old times, I tell you. Just like old times indeed.
<3 sofg | | |
| Today, the boy told me that I have skinny fingers.
I don't know if he realizes how that feeds my addiction...
Sigh. | | |
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