I don't know. I'm obviously not blogging. I mean, I get on here every day and check my subscriptions and read everyone else's blogs. Mostly, Mrs. Small's. But still. I'm not sure why I'm not blogging. I think it's mostly because I've taken to pondering things in my heart and mind, and I don't feel like writing about it. I want to think and wonder until I know. And once I know, I don't want to go back and write it up. I've already moved past.

But is that even a good enough excuse? I mean, I could totally write about other things. I think I'll try to make more of an effort lately.

Then again, I get the feeling no one's even reading this anymore. Oh, well.

I like this. AK said that when people plan something they kind of take it on as their baby or something like that. Sometimes that's bad. When someone tries to change it, it's hard not to get defensive.
But... I feel... accomplished? Proud? Something. I like putting this much detail into something that's going to give everyone else a fun time. It's fun. I wish I could do it more.

You know what I like?
I like that my future's a mystery. With some people, God asks them to commit early. They train for their futures as soldiers for Him, knowing where He's leading. I don't know the pros to that. Because me... I'm not certain. Quite a few times this week, I heard, "I don't know where you're headed." Not in a bad way. It usually followed after they mentioned some quality they knew God would use. I think this gives me the opportunity to focus on now.

It's like Weston, God bless him, said, "I'm 27, and I still don't know where my future is headed. All I know is that I'm supposed to be here right now."

All is well.