Oh how I long for the days I can lie on my floor watching reruns of hopeless television or memorizing lines to cheesy movies that make my day. It's so easy to take advantage of complete and utter free-time... but you don't want to bum out for too long, cause that tends to get even boring after a while. So that is why, this summer, I will find the perfect (or almost) mix of working hard (somewhere I can actually be genuinely happy hopefully) and hardly working, unless of course it's working on my skills of being selfishly lazy. I will do just that.

And now back to HChemistry, a class that taught me... that I just don't have the patience to be in science, any shape or form.

P.S. Maybe you could use something to get you through the night... at least I will.

Hello, new love of Diane's fantasy life :]

 What are my ears in love with at this moment?

I didn't care much for her music before, but this album has changed all that for me. It rocks. "Good Girl Gone Bad" the song has a special place in my heart now, haha!

Look out for:

Britney Spears: Blackout

I've heard all the demos that are out now, and so far so damn good. I'm excited!

Nostalgia.

"You never know what you have til it's gone. "

I can say that the best two weeks of my summer have happened and gone by. When you're with the people that really bring you to the brink of everything happiness, all you can think is, all good things must come to an end. And it has... for now. Monic and her family being here really brought me back to that place where everything was where it was supposed to be. Everything was right. And now, this great sense of loneliness is so overwhelming... something I haven't felt in a long long time. And for the first time in awhile, I don't know how to cover it. I know we'll see each other again, but it's the whole thought of the whole separation in between that i'm finding it extremely hard to accept. I'm writing this with a large clump in my throat and tears continuing to threaten my eyes hoping that maybe if I can let some of this out, it wouldn't get so bad. Now I'm having second thoughts. Damnit, I miss you. Every hour I'm thinking about where they are, how they must be on a plane, going back to their own lives.. that isn't here with us. Wherever I go and whatever I do around here now reminds me of you being with me doing them before and it makes it that much more affecting. It's rare to find someone or people who can make the most simple things the most exciting things in the world.. when you don't have to try hard to have fun and be happy. This sounds extremely depressing, but hell it is. When you find someone who's that close to your heart and someone who you make a lifelong connection to, count your blessings and make it a damn good effort to value your time with them.

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little bit of each other everywhere." ~ Tim McGraw

So it's really over.. come on, hit me already. But hey no complaints here, summer was a long time coming yet so quick to come. How is that possible? But me, i'm looking forward to fullfilling these next few months. Working and becoming more and more financially independent, continuing to pursue my passions, and really just being free from tasks and unwanted stress. Like there's such thing as a wanted stress, but maybe I mean the ones less tolerable. The end of years are always so bittersweet. You want to end it so bad yet, you feel nostalgia and you actually miss the little things that you didn't think mattered.

Mmm, got my ID done for Starbucks (Airport) yesterday.... and I hate it. It looks like I'm a deer caught in headlights. It also has the scan thing on it where you put it in front of the security and those doors to the offices unlock automatically.. But I didn't know that part only worked after having the ID for 3 months. So yeah, imagine seeing a girl trying to unlock an airport door.. about 6 times. I would be suspicious as hell too. hahaha.

I'm loving all these new albums I have in my Ipod.. Music is life huh? Can you imagine watching movies without the music in the back.... Someone supposedly angry and upset would turn into someone needing to be in a mental instution. Try it, it puts a very very different tone to it.