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i miss dancing. like a porn star misses sex. i dance on the streets while walking around with my ipod and all these hip-hop-deprived asians look at me like i've grown a penis out of my forehead.
expectations are overrated. no expectations, no disappointment. standards are different...always maintain standards. but if you're expecting or hoping for something...drop it while you can. (not related to anything hong kong/taiwan...just a recent thought of mine.)
don't come to taiwan or hong kong. you will get fat, i promise.
i miss american boys...asian boys are SO no fun to look at.
my mandarin and cantonese are so much better now.
i went to a studio and got some pictures taken the other day...it was fun and i felt like a mini celebrity.
and um...i miss everybody so much. i can't wait to come back and see the funks, faces peeps, the shakes, and every single one else who don't belong to one of my weird named categories of people. hehe.
please text me, i get service on my phone over here and i can get texts but i recently realized that if i text back i might as well sell my soul, cause it costs just that much.
and please email me, i have a comp at my constant disposal now so i want to hear from you. CAUSE I MISS YOUR FACE.
ok, bye nowwww.
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I'M IN HONG KONG. 
so yeah, if i'm in hong kong why am i wasing my time playing on the internet? well i'm living with my grandmere and she doesn't have internet, so it's either take a taxi to the nearest internet cafe where you're only supposed to spend 15 minutes on a computer (that's a negative) or go to my great uncle's house and sit here for 2.5 hours visiting all of my usual haunts and checking my email, but only do it once (check yes). sooo...here i am!
the flight here was ridiculous. 4 hours to dallas, 13 hours to tokyo, and 4 hours to hong kong. over 24 hours of travelling total. lemme tell you, i am glad that i am compact and travel-size, cause if i were any bigger i'da been pushin people outta the seats beside so that i could sleep. how do you big people do it?!
so far all i've done is eat and shop. i'm broke already, and i've been here for five days. thank all of the heavenly deities that i don't live here, otherwise i'd makin a home out of the comfy-est street corner. maybe i should wish for self-control for christmas.
my grandma is awesome, she loves me and i love her. she feeds me like five times a day. and she lets me go out on my own (a first!) and go out to play with my friends (i love my mo mo!). the weather here is lovely, about 65 degrees today. aHAAAAA to all you suckas that are freezin your asses off!
tomorrow is my great aunt and great uncle's ginormous wedding anniversary gala. and a GALA it really is. me and moms both had to go out and find dresses and such cause we didn't know it'd be so damn fancy! everyone in all lines of our family have come into town from all over the world to go to the fete. there's gonna be a live band, dancing, everybody's gonna be decked out in their bling (apparently all the relatives on this side of the world are a helluva lot richer than i knew. the house i'm sitting in right now is worth $10 million. just for this FLOOR.) so i'm excited to be part of probably the only iced out monied up event i will ever go to. wheeee.
so, to 2006.
i will definitely be changin and adapting for the new year. if i had my pics with me i'd put up a recap of the old, but i don't so i can't.
but 2005 was a pretty damn big year for me.
i joined capital funk, and began dancing. which is momentous, because it made me realize that my life force is DANCE. NOTHIN and NO ONE else. and through that i became part of a crazy psychotic family who will be there for me till the end. (special thanks to the 416, especially my poo. love you guys). i broke some of my rules and got a lil scandalous  , and had FUN doin it. i lost my sanity and my self while doin CABINET this summer, and am still tryin to find my way back. i met someone who sparked in my head the idea of how great things could be someday. i branched out of gw and made some new friends (FACES, y'all are HOTT!). i got through the most academically hard semester of my life. i developed a confidence that i can see and feel everyday. and of course there's more but this entry's damn long already.
there was lots of stressin and over-analyzing about who i am, where i am, and what i should be. and there were parts of the journey during which i lost all sense of self. never in my life have i been so dangerously low. forget the heartbreak of breaking up, forget losing a friend to a car accident...i've been there and it's heart-wrenching, don't get it twisted. but losing footing and feeling like you have no idea who you are inside anymore...THAT is horrifying.
but i'm whole again, so thank you, 2005, for teachin me everything i've learned! clearly, i'm not perfect, and i don't have everything figured out yet, but who is, who does, and who cares? i'm still figurin things out, but lovin life, livin life, and dancing dancing, always dancing.
PEACE OUT to two-thousand-five, HUHWO and HELL YEAH to two-oh-oh-SIX.
enjoy the ride, homefries. hugs and oh so many kisses. | 
