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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 23:52:28 GMT

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill... The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the string we have, and that is our attitude... I am convinced that life is ten percent what happens to me and ninety percent how I react to it. And so it is with you."

-Dr. Charles Swindoll

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 05:11:30 GMT

some of the peektures that i took for fun in taiwan. the rest are on my "supsers" gmail account, for you special people that know the password.

yep, this is a shameless post, but c'mon, i usually look like janx, so when will i ever look like this again??

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 13:30:04 GMT

::edit::

i miss dancing. like a porn star misses sex. i dance on the streets while walking around with my ipod and all these hip-hop-deprived asians look at me like i've grown a penis out of my forehead.

expectations are overrated. no expectations, no disappointment. standards are different...always maintain standards. but if you're expecting or hoping for something...drop it while you can. (not related to anything hong kong/taiwan...just a recent thought of mine.)

don't come to taiwan or hong kong. you will get fat, i promise.

i miss american boys...asian boys are SO no fun to look at.

my mandarin and cantonese are so much better now.

i went to a studio and got some pictures taken the other day...it was fun and i felt like a mini celebrity.

and um...i miss everybody so much. i can't wait to come back and see the funks, faces peeps, the shakes, and every single one else who don't belong to one of my weird named categories of people. hehe.

please text me, i get service on my phone over here and i can get texts but i recently realized that if i text back i might as well sell my soul, cause it costs just that much.

and please email me, i have a comp at my constant disposal now so i want to hear from you. CAUSE I MISS YOUR FACE.

ok, bye nowwww.

::end edit::

I'M IN HONG KONG.

so yeah, if i'm in hong kong why am i wasing my time playing on the internet? well i'm living with my grandmere and she doesn't have internet, so it's either take a taxi to the nearest internet cafe where you're only supposed to spend 15 minutes on a computer (that's a negative) or go to my great uncle's house and sit here for 2.5 hours visiting all of my usual haunts and checking my email, but only do it once (check yes). sooo...here i am!

the flight here was ridiculous. 4 hours to dallas, 13 hours to tokyo, and 4 hours to hong kong. over 24 hours of travelling total. lemme tell you, i am glad that i am compact and travel-size, cause if i were any bigger i'da been pushin people outta the seats beside so that i could sleep. how do you big people do it?!

so far all i've done is eat and shop. i'm broke already, and i've been here for five days. thank all of the heavenly deities that i don't live here, otherwise i'd makin a home out of the comfy-est street corner. maybe i should wish for self-control for christmas.

my grandma is awesome, she loves me and i love her. she feeds me like five times a day. and she lets me go out on my own (a first!) and go out to play with my friends (i love my mo mo!). the weather here is lovely, about 65 degrees today. aHAAAAA to all you suckas that are freezin your asses off!

tomorrow is my great aunt and great uncle's ginormous wedding anniversary gala. and a GALA it really is. me and moms both had to go out and find dresses and such cause we didn't know it'd be so damn fancy! everyone in all lines of our family have come into town from all over the world to go to the fete. there's gonna be a live band, dancing, everybody's gonna be decked out in their bling (apparently all the relatives on this side of the world are a helluva lot richer than i knew. the house i'm sitting in right now is worth $10 million. just for this FLOOR.) so i'm excited to be part of probably the only iced out monied up event i will ever go to. wheeee.

so, to 2006.

i will definitely be changin and adapting for the new year. if i had my pics with me i'd put up a recap of the old, but i don't so i can't.

but 2005 was a pretty damn big year for me.

i joined capital funk, and began dancing. which is momentous, because it made me realize that my life force is DANCE. NOTHIN and NO ONE else. and through that i became part of a crazy psychotic family who will be there for me till the end. (special thanks to the 416, especially my poo. love you guys). i broke some of my rules and got a lil scandalous , and had FUN doin it. i lost my sanity and my self while doin CABINET this summer, and am still tryin to find my way back. i met someone who sparked in my head the idea of how great things could be someday. i branched out of gw and made some new friends (FACES, y'all are HOTT!). i got through the most academically hard semester of my life. i developed a confidence that i can see and feel everyday. and of course there's more but this entry's damn long already.

there was lots of stressin and over-analyzing about who i am, where i am, and what i should be. and there were parts of the journey during which i lost all sense of self. never in my life have i been so dangerously low. forget the heartbreak of breaking up, forget losing a friend to a car accident...i've been there and it's heart-wrenching, don't get it twisted. but losing footing and feeling like you have no idea who you are inside anymore...THAT is horrifying.

but i'm whole again, so thank you, 2005, for teachin me everything i've learned! clearly, i'm not perfect, and i don't have everything figured out yet, but who is, who does, and who cares? i'm still figurin things out, but lovin life, livin life, and dancing dancing, always dancing.

PEACE OUT to two-thousand-five, HUHWO and HELL YEAH to two-oh-oh-SIX.

enjoy the ride, homefries. hugs and oh so many kisses.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Wed, 07 Dec 2005 07:58:35 GMT

.:21:.

actually it's not THAT huge of a deal. except that now i get to club with the big boys. wooo-eee!

and christmas in Hong Kong, and January in Taiwan. itsa gonna be a bigga winta breaka. WHEEEEEEE.

p.s. what i want for christmas: to have my life figured out. wham bam THANK YOU MA'AM.

so, in advance:

a

merry fairy christmas to you

and a

happy slappy new years!

i lufffff all o' y'all.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 07:30:11 GMT

i was reading through my old xangas, and it's weird to see last year's thanksgiving post. i mean...has it already been an entire year? DAMN son. time flies by way too fast for comfort. NO LIKEY.

but i would just like to say:

Happy Thanksgiving

mucho mucho appreciation and all the love to my famille, my funks (aka my fambam), my friends, and anyone else new who has come into my life (FACES ladies and gents, KC cohorts, babyfunkers, and more). EXTRA hugs and squeezes to my girl KATE, who owns half of my heart. yea fellas, you want the other half, you gotta get through this bad ass chick.

this school year's been hella hard so far...and that's really all there's been in my life. school. mad boring and irritating, yes. but hey i gots my health, my dancing, my peoples, and my healthy mind to be grateful for. so i gotta remind myself to stop bitching all the time.

thank god for a healthy body...if anything happens to this body that prevents me from dancing, i think someone would have to vacuum and mop up the remains of my heart and sanity from the floor.

so, in conclusion (although this is the most unorganized writing), even though i will be writing two 10 page papers over thanksgiving break, i am uber excited for break, and you should be too. eat a lot of turkey, pass out for 3 hours, wake up, play with your family, eat some pie, pass out again, wake up, watch movies, and love it. and c'mon, get FAT. ladies, don't worry about gaining weight...turkey and stuffing is SOOO worth it. fellas, leave some grub for the ladies. and everybody, HOOK UP WITH SOMEONE FUN WHILE YOU'RE AT HOME, aiite??

(teeehee yea that was for you biff)

mad love to you crazy mo'suckas. live it up.

Monday, October 10, 2005

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 03:36:10 GMT

ok, clearly i haven't written in a long time, but my boo sherie lou tagged me so here goes:

top 5 songs on repeat on my ipod:

1. esthero. "that girl"
2. case. "faded picture"
3. crooklyn clan. "where the ladyz at"
4. esthero. "country living"
5. dwele. "possible"

what can i say, i love esthero, and i love grooving mellow.

now i tag 5 people, and you have to put up your top 5 playlist. i tag miki, kyler, donna, cindy, and tiffi biffi. love yas.

my dancing's getting better...keepin on growin and learnin...my heart is full!

Friday, August 19, 2005

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 06:24:46 GMT

summatiiiime:

Friday, August 19, 2005

Fri, 19 Aug 2005 06:24:31 GMT

"I haven't called her.. I mean.. this girl right now.. is perfect. I don't want to ruin that."

"Maybe you're perfect right now, and you don't want to ruin that."

"Listen son, I'll tell you right now... you aren't perfect. And neither is she. But its not about whether or not you're perfect... its if you're perfect for each other"

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 20:26:59 GMT

so i'm sitting in gelman basement, helping pre-frosh pre-register for their classes, and basically being exhausted and bored out of my mind. i'm running on no sleep, nerves, adrenaline, words of encouragement, and duty. CI is absolute craziness; to all you gdub kids, you wouldn't believe what it's like from the other end.

ok i make it sound shitty, but really it's a great experience.

no i'm being serious, it really is.

it's just one of those great experiences that will be amazing once it's done, but you lose perspective when answering some neurotic parents' fiftieth question about how to pack up their kids' ironing board while trying to keep your eyes open.

anyhow lots has happened since the last update...quick summary (no particular order, mind you):

- finished sophomore year
- fell in love with my Fam (aka cfunk)
- started the absolute madness of CI - this is the reason for my sudden disappearances...close friends will understand
- met someone great, dated, became out-dated
- went home for a few days...pittsburgh will always be home
- got my nose pierced --- that's right, finally got it. and no, my parents did not slit my throat nor disown me like i thought they would...they just grimaced, then said "no more accessories, ok??"
- became closer to some of my great hallmates/co-workers
- met some fun and neat freshmen
- learned how to run on 1.5 hours of sleep
- learned how to be happy and chatty, 24/7 ... it IS possible ... it's just not always real
- got a tattoo --- parents still don't know

AHAHA ok the last one is a lie. but that WOULD be a fun time.

i think there's more, but i can't remember. and honestly, i don't feel like making the effort for a xanga entry.

so yea, basically, my life has consisted of the few non-CI friends that i've managed to see a few times, and CI. sounds boring for a summer, but if you knew half the shit that Cabinet goes through for CI...oh boy.

Monday, May 09, 2005

Mon, 09 May 2005 16:58:04 GMT

more to come later, but for now, my heart, my joy, my pride, my CAPITAL FUNK!

from the last four and a half hour practice in an old gravelly lot...

...to holding the sweet THIRD PLACE trophy. first place, second place, doesn't even matter. we went through hell and high water, then came crawling back, and still managed to get up and stand tall. i repeat, (because this is the only thing i said for the whole night) "WE FUCKING PLACED!!"

(missing 7 people in this picture)

Capital Funk: third best hip-hop dance team on the east coast. and second best amateur team!

my heart.