Monday, June 16, 2008

Sunday, June 15, 2008

  • hat

    i think all important decisions should be decided by picking out of a hat. i know it sounds silly but it works for a few reasons:

    1. i hate to be the perpetual optimist, but no matter which way you go i trust that things will work themselves out. with that said, paper slips entered into the hat should not deal with drugs, murder, cheating, lying or one night stands with questionable men.

    2. obviously the fates want you to go for the paper you pluck out. what better support than that of divine intervention? okay. so i don't know about that, but i'm told that the placebo effect holds some pretty powerful punch.

    3. if you pick out a decision and you say so yourself "best 2 of 3 ... 3 of 5...", i think you already know what you want. so put the hat down & pursue it.

    and maybe that's what i'll end up doing.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

  • "random fact #1"

    i check my email about every 10 minutes. or as often as a web browser is open on my computer. aka - i respond to emails before you write them.

Monday, May 12, 2008

  • "you wanna be on top?"

    i am very lucky. almost everyone around me believes in my ability to do better, even when i can't see it.

    well, maybe they don't know about my time at the bottom of the pyramid, but i think that it's enough that they do believe in me. i am not who i was in high school. i was ambitious. i was hard-working. i was punctual with my assignments. i rarely ever fell asleep in class. and i was ready for my challenges. a recent development - i've seemed to almost be friends with math. the math that i've encountered in college, well, i've seen it before in high school. maybe that's the way with me. i have to go through the hard things twice. but maybe i should simply try twice as hard once.

    i'm learning. you can't just get to college and know it all. know who you are and what works for you. and if you can, i applaud you. but i'm not like that. i have to fail with a lot of techniques before i can find one that works. and i'm okay with that. i don't know how okay med school admissions is with that, but i'm okay with that.

    i want better for myself. while there are a number of things that i would have fun doing - teaching, cooking, writing, flight attending......... being president..... :0) i know that there has never been anything i've ever wanted but to be a doctor. to save lives. so here i sit - with my first final on friday and my last on monday - with a decision. and i've made it

    i want better for myself.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

  • "just say yes"

    so i have some work to do. actually, i have a lot of work to do but whenever a scenario as such is presented to me, i choose to write a ridiculously long and insightful (if i do say so myself) xanga entry.

    so here it is:

    finals are here! well not HERE here, but they're on their way. just imagine that they're being shipped from new zealand and once they arrive in the states, they will continue their journey via 18th century pony express. anywho, i just wanted to take a little time to pump some inspiration and confidence into the xanga community and perhaps more so, into myself.

    every semester around finals time, my body goes haywire. i myself usually remain quite calm for the majority of the time. this is probably because while my body realizes the extreme requirement of haste, my mind hasn't the slightest clue. i'll start getting hungry only around two in the morning because this is time for that "power food" that is supposed to keep me up and working through the night to learn my mechanisms and cell processes. my hand starts to write at an incomprehensible speed and my hypothalamus and pineal gland turn off all desires of and signals for sleep. however my conscious mind does not want any power food. and does not want to write mind-blowingly fast. and it certainly does not want to pass on my soft bed, warm blanky and fluffy ralph lauren pillow. ironically, my mind is the one unprepared organ for finals time.

    but i think this semester's end will be slightly different. my desktop wallpaper has been changed to a snapshot of a building part of the University of Maryland School of Medicine and i feel, quite honestly, very pumped to do well on my tests. i feel like there is ample time for preparation and that i can truly come out of this on top of things. i hope that every person that is gearing up for this coffee-filled week does as they would like on their finals. you guys can do it :)

    keep a clear head
    and organize your thoughts
    find out what you need to know
    and learn it
    don't forget to eat
    and don't forget to breathe

    yes. we. can! see you on the other side.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

  • "a toast"

    well, here's to the past. and here's to the present. here's to wherever "here" might be. here's to the friends i had and the friends i have, to blue skies to soak in and crisp air to breathe. to runner's high and good music, to good food and good stories. here's to growing up, but not growing apart, unless we must. here's to putting sleep on the backburner; we have years and years to do that later. here's to laughing til you cry. here's to waking up next to the softest person in history. here's to falling asleep on a shoulder, bright colored flip flops and summer. here's to the people who care. here's to your brown eyes. here's to shopping sprees and starbucks. here's to trivial science and future roommates. here's to you. and here's to me. i guess what that really means is, here's to us.

    kiddos