Just a quick update

I'm really on myspace a lot more than here now... myspace.com/betsyradio

Still at KDUV FM (kduvfm.com)... listen for me on the weekends!

Just had my 23rd bday... Daivd and Shannon kidnapped me and took me to San Fran... tons of pics on my myspace fromt he trip!

Hit me up!

bets...

I made it!

I'm here in Cali! Yesterday was my first day! Wow--even if you think you know a lot about your specific field of study, etc it's still nuts when you really start doing it! I had a couple emotional 'ok betsy pull yourself together-you can do this' moments with myself yesterday!

Otherwise it's beautiful out here and the 42 hour drive was nice--I mean it! God knew what He was doing when He created this world--duh! ha!

More to come later--but pray for me! thanks!

love ya,

bets...

Moving will humble you...

Ok... so all the moving prep, etc has made me feel like I don't know anything! It's been quite humbling to be honest...

Like yesterday I was on the phone with my soon to be boss for like an hour and I swear he's probably thinking I'm a dweeb b/c he's had to explain the u-haul trailor stuff to me like 3 times! Bah!

Good thing though that I had the Aieshya Woods CD to encourage me through my random errands yesterday! (plug for the CD! Introdcuing Aieshya Woods a Class A CD... over...)

Alright well I am off to be humbled even further as I look for a bank and do a change of address thingy lol... yea thingy... wait am I 10? lol...

okies... love yas...

bets...

Hugh Jackman and the Librarian....

sorry for the random title... thats for shannon...

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Disappointment and Deserving:

I struggle with this... b/c I'm always thinking that I'm going to disappoint people or upset them by not measuring up to what I am supposed to be, etc... and yadda yadda yadda I know that it's who I am in God's sight and not man's... I'm just being honest and upfront with this...

I just feel so inadequate at times... in the light of who I am and who I've been... why am I being given the opportunities I've been afforded... recently and overall...? It's definately not because I'm deserving... that's for sure...

What's nuts is that I serve this great big God that comes down every morning and kisses my cheek with the sun that comes in through my window... and that He loves me as I am and isn't disappointed by my short comings because He knew they were coming... and He is so worthy that in-turn He makes me deserving enough to be His kid... nuts... but I like it...

talk to you soon...

bets...

Being in love...

This morning I woke up and I couldn't stop thinking about the concept of being in love... not that I am in love at the moment... but you know...

Do you think you can be in love with someone and not really know it? Like maybe until that person isn't in your life anymore or they are 'taken' by someone else?

Those are the two questions swirling around my head... I haven't come to a conclusion on either of them yet... but I have some thoughts...

On the question of not knowing you are in love with someone... how could this happen? Like... maybe you know you 'love' them like a sibling kind of thing... then you realize that it's more than that? Does it just happen or build? Or maybe it's already had the framework built and one day your eyes are finally open to it? blah...

Now the idea of not realizing your 'love' until the person is 'taken'... maybe that's just jealousy... my eyes have been open to greed and jealousy lately... I've seen a lot of it around me in the last few months... personally and seeing other people do it to others... it's ugly... and nasty... bah...

yea so they are more like incomplete thoughts... but it's just something for some reason that's bothering me today... ha maybe I am in love and don't know it LOL!

love YOU ha...

bets...