spent_on_raining_days's Xanga

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Sun, 23 Jan 2005 15:13:23 GMT

new xanga- http://xanga.com/makeIt_chemicalxx

new screenname- justplayTragicxx

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Saturday, January 22, 2005

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 15:17:31 GMT

jealousy isn't a fun thing...i don't get why i am though it just doesn't all make sense

i'm acting like he is my property or something when honest to god he is not and it's really not that big of a deal but i just can't take it.it's getting to me

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Sat, 22 Jan 2005 11:48:35 GMT

too early..my parents woke me up this morning before 6 o' clock! i was so fucking mad i had this wierd dream last night i forget it kind of but i remember rachel telling me why nicole was mad at me? cause of my attitude or something it was really weird and then i like died in the dream i think i forget how though.. it's snowing i'd much rather go to winterball tonight because well it's something to do but no it's freakin canceled err well until next saturday which is when BRIGHT EYES is coming which means i definetly can't go now which has now made my day horrifically bad. i'm gonna be a bitch today so whatever no one in this house better talk to me the batteries on my camera are already fucking dead and i got them 2 days ago and i only took like 10 pictures, what the hell? ....i'm a liar don't listen to me

WHERE DO YOU GO WHEN HOME IS NO LONGER COMFORTING?

Friday, January 21, 2005

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 16:01:17 GMT

last day of jewelry not much to say it's the weekend so that means i've got nothing to do again. bright eyes MY LOVE is coming in 7 days and i don't think i'm going.

i'm so stupid, so stupid.

i don't know what's going on but this weekend should be interesting*

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 16:45:54 GMT

school- 2 hour delay..but it was dumb all the classes were just short it was really weird so therefore jewelry class was short but it was still fun. we were talking about like skateboarding stories and bryn said that his friend saw this tape of this kid who was doing a railing trick but he fell right, yeah you know where and he like split it in two or something it was disgusting bryn said he almost threw up when he heard about it. yeah i almost threw up too, ah that would suck so much and i'm not even a guy.lol

8 days until my beautiful bright eyes comes to me<3

i just remembered that valentines day is coming up well not really but in at least in a few weeks, wonder how that ones gonna turn out?

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 15:33:49 GMT

IT'SNOWING

i don't know snow everyone is like OMG it's snowing OMG but it's just like depressing a little bit it reminds me of old movies for some reason and romantic stuff but today was oh so swell<3 and jewelry class was just absolutely WONDERFUL...

       bryn dyed his hair brown!

he's so hot..this kid was like why the hell do you have paperclips in your ear and everything and making fun of it and bryn stodd up for me<3 he's great and we talked like the whole time err well the whole table talked but still? oh yeah paperclips= 4 now my gage is going along beautifully<3 i'm so excited for the finished result of it all but tomorrow i really hope we have a delay cause i would miss gym class which is awesome and i would go straight to jewelry class which is even better. i don't know, today was just a pleasant day, like pretty much nothing bad happened. so i got on the bus gave marissa my lunch got off the bus marissa and aaron were kicking other and shit so i decided to throw around snowballs but the snowballs weren't that great but oh well so marissa went home early cause she's WHORE haha so me and aaron has a snowball fight? i guess haha and

I SO WON

because it's not over yet, yeah that's right lol but snow was all down my shirt and my hoodie it didn't feel to well, yeah.

            9 days until my beautiful BRIGHT EYES comes to town

pray that i can go<3

just looked on chrissy's xanga, she had pictures of shs i miss it so much<3 she had a picture of that kid mike i remember last year i broke his glasses yeah i thought they were bendy glasses lol, there's more to it though, it was just a really dumb thing. i used to cry to get out of everything it was crazy. and most of the time it worked,i'm so good at fake crying. although i'm kind of ad at people right now i still miss them, it was just alot of fun.

                                 THERE'S JUST SOMETHING ABOUT IT

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 18:01:03 GMT

i need fucking sleep!! 10 days until my beautiful bright eyes, if i can go

anyway i went to the mall yesterday with my mommy and nanny and we got my dress, but i don't know we got home and i took it out and suddenly i didn't like it that much anymore so i think i'm gonna kee the tag on it wear it and take it back haha so yeah i found my claire's gift card biotch! but they didn't have any good gadges..so oh well yeah so last night i decided i would start my gadging process so instead of 1 paperclip in my ear i put in two and it didn't feel bad today so now i have 3 in, i'm getting closer and closer to my beautiful gadge! last night i didn't get to bed until like 3:30 in the morning, i don't know i just couldn't sleep but oh well this morning i was crazy i only got 3 hours of fucking sleep!! yah so today was good, actually kind of FABULOUs haha yeah i got home and my mom was playig home videos from a couple of years ago, i'm so different! like just the way i acted and talked i'm alot different and i'm so glad.. my mom did my hair bitches so holler, gosh people piss me the fuck off, some people should just die while their ahead.. later<3

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Sun, 16 Jan 2005 13:50:17 GMT

One: Nothing's wrong with me. Two: Nothing's wrong with me.Three: Nothing's wrong with me Four: Something's wrong with me. One: Something's got to give Two: Something's got to give Three: Something's got to give Four: Something's got to give.Five:........ LEt the bodies hit the floor, let me the bodies hit the floor, let the bodies hit the FLOOR

<333333 megaw!!

bright eyes 12 days! well that's if i can go these xanga posts are really pointless and i guess it's just something to cause i have no life but really why tell everyone about my boring life? but i'll still post because i'm stupid and have nothing better to do. i'm getting my winterball dress tomorrow, i don't know why i'm going though, i don't really have anyone to really hang out with, well kind of? ...ugh i really just hate some people, they just piss me off. why do people have to show off everything? especially people who don't have have anything that great to show off, it just bothers me so much, i hate people like that. i kicked my little brother in the face today and i stepped on his leg,i didn't mean to but it was kind of funny. last night i found all these great songs and i lost them because i'm retarded and i didn't realize the save button was right there..i'm so clueless.. good news i lost weight!!, which makes my day a little better so starting Monday err tomorrow i'm going on a diet for the week just for winterball so i can look a little better so hopefully i'll stick with it and i'll lose like 20 pounds if i keep with it for about 2 months or so. which most likely won't happen but it's always nice to keep hope. megan's going to see Aaron from Staind tonight she's been so excited this whole week i hope she has fun.well that's enough no one really reads this shit anyway

m00d<< observant and mellow..

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[2]How long have you known me?
[3]How would you describe me?
[4]Do you love me?
[5]Are you my best friend?
[6]If you won a million dollars would you be nice and share some to me?
[7]Do you think our friendship will never ever brake?
[8]Are we in common?
[9]Would you post this in your xanga so I can fill this out too?
[10]Would you always be there for me no matter what?
[11]If I were a type of candy, what would I be and why?
[12]What nickname would you give me?
[13]Do you think I'm nice?
[14]What is the best thing about me?
[15]What is the worst thing about me?
[16]Do you think I'm really cool?
[17]If I were to fill this out, do you think I'll give you good compliments?
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Saturday, January 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Jan 2005 23:35:20 GMT

too many updates for one day but i feel like doing something so pictures?

sad right now, just everything i knew today would be a bad day even though i got to see jill and sam but i just knew it..at least now i can cry about it but it does feel nice to have people paying attention to me for some reason i don't know but all of sudden people are talking to me wanting to know me? i apinted my nails today and the paint is already chipped off, i guess it'd my new nervous habit messing up my nails? i don't know, i much rather bite my lip. i hope tomorrow will be better..why do people ask such rude questions?

bright eyes<3 but i don't think i'm going

what the hell, there all fuzzy but do ya see the safety pin in ear? yeah bitch thats hardcore right there lol gadge soon!!!

my D0RA the expoler toy from burger king(like i need it)

yeah..?

Ugly

the best picture ever and photobucket fucked it up.

my arm? pretty bracelets<33

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Sat, 15 Jan 2005 16:57:09 GMT

i need to get out, i have to.it's already too late i've gone absolutely insane i counted it's been 5 weeks without doing anything by MYSELF and just my friends pretty pathetic isn't it? and my brother god i just want to kick his fucking ass and curse at him. he messed up my clean room on purpose, i hate him. i had just spent like an hour cleaning it and then he messed it up! he he twisted my leg, fucking asshole. he acts like he's so PERFECT but really he's even worse than me.. i can't curse at him cause he'll tell my parents cause he's such a goody goody and oh yeah he never curses yeah right. some kids were climbing on our tree outside and he freaked out like it was some big deal..KIDS CLIMB TREES..come on?! he was like what's their names and all this shit he got all mad cause i didn't know. and then my dad came home and he didn't even yell at him for hurting me and messing up my room..so i went in the bathroom and had a good cry so there goes my good day and i felt so good today too. but of course he ruined it i don't get why my own brother hates me, no he seriously hates me one time he even threatened to slit my throat while i was sleeping so of course that whole night i stayed awake terrified.. and oh there's too many things that he's threatened to do and did..

just getting my anger out but tonight hopefully i can go or i will scream at the stop of my fucking lungs, 5 weeks is way too long..

eDit//

so movies with jill and sam i don't know it felt awkward? it just wasn't the same but i don't know maybe it was just me but it felt good to get out at least the movie was really good.. my brother and my dad went to John's Dad's funeral today and i had to wake up early but i really didn't mind cause yeah they were showing respect..it's so sad though...well go0dnight;;xx3