turtles and tattoos

...please, Jesus, please...

Can't say I know what to write.

I've had so many thoughts for so long that I don't even know what to put on here anymore.

I don't want to go to speech.

...i've got a broken heart...

I need to take some new pictures, get some fresh images out there. Who knows... maybe tonight sometime.

...you are singing in my heart...

...the very frist time i met you, you were hanging on my heart...

So yea. Got to see The Violet Burning last night. It was something my heart needed. Especially to hear them play Low.

i could die here tonight
your beautiful words in my soul
i could die here tonight
and you wouldn't even notice
you wouldn't even protest

we could lie here together
pulling the stars from the sky
maybe things will get better
maybe not, i don't know why

do you feel scared like i do?
do you feel lower than angels?
do you feel scared like i do?
do you feel love so high?

bring the stars from the mountains
how far down can we go?
by the floors of the ocean
are we falling like stones?
am i your sinking star?

do you feel scared like i do?
do you feel lower than angels?
i am reaching high
do you feel... oh... so high?

i feel your fire
i feel it
breathe on me
come on, breathe
breathe on me, river that fills my soul

i could die here tonight
your beautiful words in my soul
maybe things will get better
maybe i am the liar
maybe i am the liar
baby, i am the liar

but, i feel your fire
near my soul
near my heart
i feel it, breathe on me
come on, breathe
come on, breathe on me

do you feel scared?
do you feel lower?
do you feel scared like i do?
it's your love that keeps me here
it's my heart that's caving in
you are gone and i am broken
do you feel love so high?
love, so high
i feel high
near the ocean floor

near the floors of the ocean
how far down can we go?

Yea. I think I like Pritzel so much because he can take how I feel, which is how he's felt, put it into beautiful artistic statements and write music to it. Music that I can sing.

"Give them something they can sing. Everyone is looking for something, something they can connect with."

...please Jesus, please, I've got a broken heart...

And then, the fact that he stopped on his way to the stage, told us hello and asked how we had been since the last show... just rekindled my love for TVB. (Heh, sounds like some kind of vaginal disease... I wonder if they think that too...)

And yea. BlackCherry giggling like a girl because he can make pictures dance... made my night.

And remember kids, don't ever ask to go 80s dancing with Cherry, he'll stand you up.

...Radio Jesus Superstar...

Currently Listening Happy By Matthew West happy see related

...i should be happy...

i will not forget the day when the sides were chosen
me against me against...me
clothing so drenched with sweat
and the teeth they were clenched
who can i trust when i...

So yea, feels like it's been an uneventful week, when in truth, I'm not so sure it has been.

A) I started my new job.
B) Got quite a few things done. (Laundry was not one...)
C) Saw quite a lot of Jensen's family.
D) Slept well, ate well, and lost a little weight.
E) My great-uncle Will died.

grabbed hold my enemy's neck
and choked 'till he ceased
blistered with disbelief i awake dead
and when i awoke i couldn't believe it was me
all the time it was me

He just sounded so sad over the phone. His wife and his brother, in such a short time-period. He seemed so small, fraile, and broken sitting there on my couch, reading his bible. So... world-weary.

there you sit my little world-weary traveler
let me take you home where the river runs clear
where the stars play and in the clouds you'll find her
the one that you lost and yet feels so near

So today I'm running through life as if in a haze. Getting back in 'the swing of things'. Whatever that means. I don't feel like things were ever really 'swinging' before, more of just a low rumbling. Like a train...

so many times we smile in pride
putting such faith in what we've accomplished
but minutes ago we were     minutes ago we were
slitting our wrists, running for sympathy

"I think I'm done here, I'm going to go home on Easter."

...now that you found me...

Currently Listening Godspell: Original Motion Picture Soundtrack By Stephen Schwartz on the willows see related

...just let the poor thing die already...

I freakin' hate Hebrew.

You know...

... it died for a reason.

on the willows, there
we hung up our lives
for our captors there

required
of us songs
and our tormentor's mirth

So yea. I decided to try going back to the way I used to do my post, you know, when I did... like four a day and I'd just edit the original post from when I got up in the morning. Cause yea. I felt cool doing that.

Got a job. It's about freakin' time there was more than just 20 dollars a week coming into the apartment. Stewie and Jensen won't get off their lazy bums and get jobs, so it's my job now. Boys, if they don't go to work, why keep them around?

on the willows, there
we hung up our lives
for our captors there

required
of us songs
and our tormentor's mirth

Rusty did make it back to school (I didn't tell you kids, but I was worried he wouldn't). Made me glad, then I realized he probably would have been happier in ways if he had stayed at Lincoln. Poor kid. Would have missed him though.

saying
sing us one
of the songs of Zion
sing us one
of the songs of Zion

but how can we sing?
sing the Lord's songs?
in a foreign land?

I can't even imagine how you could sing a song of Zion... anywhere but there.

Over, over, over... out.

all my dreams splintering, under my fingernails...

I am so stressed right now that I'm pretty sure it would be hard for me to poop, let alone do anything else.

So yea.

Hit-men would be appreciated.

Just shoot all the guys out here.