| fanny pack man has returned.
full force.
and i have to go back to bn tomorrow.
fuck.
its not safe. |
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| a v happy bday to my favorite crispy.
a special quevice just for you:
QUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVICCCCCCCE...
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| coldplay: square one
its very interesting how quickly things can change. one thing leads to another. and before you know it youre somewhere youve only dreamed of.
im not tumbling down alone. or maybe this is upwards. its not a bad thing. its just there.
so many directions.
on another note, uploaded pics |
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| im baaaaaaaack.... with nothing to say. coldplay's x&y is amazing. prom was a ball. i hate waiting for people. |
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| im in a poor mood. not a bad one. i just dont feel happy. i feel like im stuck in the same spot forever. i let everything i dont like just slip on by me instead of just putting an end to it. i dont feel accomplished. there are so many things i want to do, want to become, want to feel. and it could all be in my grasp if i just did it. so why dont i put in that small effort? why do i have no ambition? i am clearly concious of it all. i know what has to be done. but i just dont do it. i feel ashamed of it a lot the time. and though my mind feels it, my actions are unphased. i am a very weak willed person. i dont really approve of that. i dont like being average. i like being the exception to things. but i never want to put in the effort. but if i did, i would feel so much better. i know this. so i should just do it. i need to get off this course. because im not going anywhere. theres so much there for me if i could just make myself do it. ive had this through my head a thousand times, but i never change. old habits die hard. but if i want to do it, then i have to actually do it. sowhat the fuck am i waiting for? if you want to be the one, you have to make it so. get yourself together. i dont like weak people. on a happier note, i went into the city today and got fabric for my prom dress. its a silky peacock green, and i got peacock feathers to trim the purse. and if i am so ambitious as to make my grad dress too, which i want to do, watching the stephord wives made me want to make a 50s style dress. well see. |
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