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| What can i say? I'm happppppy =) I guess. Beside the fact SCHOOLS A BITCH! I cannot wait til JUNIOR YEAR IS OVER so summer can come &i can RELAX. I cannot wait til SENIOR year, omggg, =)
So yesterday, i had a job interview. I was pretty nervous. Its like an PAID internship. it's pretty much working with a website. I was super scared =/ if i didn't get that job it was still a good experience. but yeah, i'll see how it goes cuhs i really NEED a job!
Idk. i really need to hit the gym! six flags this weekend, i'm excitedddd :D roller coasterrrrr are awesome.
What can i say? Vannnnnnara makes me HAPPY<3 hahahahaa. I think we hang out waaay too much. since i see him everyday, i don't think thats a good thing -_-. but it's like we hang out during break &lunch. its just afterschool. lol. i don't know. i'll see how we goo. I guess change is a good thing. We barely argue. I mean, he's pretty funny &laid-back. Its cute when he says "babe, i don't wanna argue today -- i mean i don't wanan argue, okay?" HAHHAA. i guess.
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| You can say that i'm scared of exes. HA. I'm sorry that i'm that jealous type of person..
So today, the bell rang to go to 4th. Then i saw Vannara, i asked where he go, he answered, "went to get food with Lisa" then it wasn't a big deal since they always go with eachother. then we were walking, later on i asked who he go with since the other day he went with Bon, Lisa &Victor. &he was like "Sally, Mary" I'm like, "MARY?!" Like, he wouldn't have told me if i didn't ask him, am i right? yes i am right, lol. argh, whatever. i know i see him everyday and i'm trying to not hang out with him often. he has interns tuedays &fridays. i don't know. whatever. i feel like he doesn't care 'bout my feelings much. or he isn't the type that would really want to make me feel any better. today, afterschool, i had to finish working on my project so thiminh, tony, tracy &i went to the library. yah, he just left with Lisa somewhere. i was just working, went to 09 after that. then around 430? i called Lisa to see where they were and she said they left bout an hour ago. im like wtf? geees, why didn't he call me and SEE WHERE i was? didn't he see my car outside the school? you can't miss it. ARGH, whatever. tryna keep my distance. man, i mean, we don't argue bout the biggest thing its just simple something we just laugh at. he's cute. i feel like he doesn't wanna be with me for long. ahh just let time tell..
school. AP US testing tomorrow. whatever, i'ma have a bad score anyways. -_- i missed school yesterday hella lame, had to catch up. I'm caught up i guess.. adv. american lit. omg its a BITCH. i'm not taking any AP classes next year. whatever.. i can't wait, 6 more weeks.
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| We're officially together!! =)
Vannara & Alyssa May 2nd, 2008 <3
it was cuteeee. HA, maybe cuhs we were at my favor place; Sunset Cliffs =)
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| GEEEES. I just read Nancy's blog &she said, "we have 29 days left til schools over" some shit like that. But WOW. How it ends so fast! I'm scared -_-
I'm taking my SATs this saturday, i'm pretty scared. Mad scared. -_- I mean, yeah we can take it again, but you know ah, i don't know. But i'm gald my school had CST testing, warm-up for SATs, that's what Tony said :P
I need help to delete my myspace. I realy want to do it. I haven't signed on! I'm proud =) The next step is to deletee ;D i'ma try a week. Vannara said a whole month, if a whole month, might as well delete it, right? hahahaha. Myspace - HA! Nothing big anyways, no one comments me ;] I love Xanga. people should blog more often.
Geeeeeeees. Its been a month since Vannara &I have been talking, wow, how time DO fly by quickly! I mean, yeah, i'm pretty much counting. AH, what is he waiting for? Not like i'ma reject him, i like him, he should know =). Thank god his parents are strict. Ah, i'm happy, he's a cool, decent guy. He doesn't like to argue, i always get mad at him, he doesn't like to augment the problem. He's truly blithe, thats what i like about him. HAHA. He puts up with my crass remarks. i try to keep my composure whenever he don't seem to notice i'm mad. i know that i can't always be a big baby and let things go my way. Last night he asked me if he can hang around his ex, and damn right i wanted to say "no" but i knew that i couldn't do that to him, so of course i said "yes" i know that she has a boyfriend and feelings can come back, but you know; if he ever wanted to get back with her, i'll prove him wrong, i'll show him that i'm better than her. ahh. i hate being a jealous person..
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| emotionsssssss...Schoooooool is SOOOOO hectic. This week for Adv. Bio is so tight since next week we have CST testing. &That saturday i have SATs how freaking amazing! -_- yeah, i'm pretty sure senior year i won't handle any AP classes. I really takes a lot of your time, i need a chill year.
David thinks he's nobody in my life anymore ever since i'm talking to Vannara, thats untrue.. No one fucking believes me man. I just want to relax. Can i just fucking relax? Just because i'm moving doesn't mean you're nobody to me. I am not ingoring you, i have homework to do. I'm busy every single day of my life, every second, beside Sundays. Sundays i'm chilling, family day, daughter &mother BOND. Fuck! Imagine me having a fucking job. NO TIME FOR NO ONE! Since the class of 2009 is throwing a dance, i'm busyyy helping with the dance. Trying to get things done. You think that i don't wanna be there for you? I come home late lately &i need to eat &do homework. Homework takes so much of my time lately. Its not like we broke up for a week &i moved on within the next week. It's been over 8 months, David. 8 months.. Isn't that long enough? Isn't? I mean, please, it's best US. We waited long enough for us to be with someone else. You told me you wanted to be done with highschool in order to find someone new. But I'm done, i need to start now. I can't keep on waiting for you to move on just so you don't get hurt. I'm sorry its not you that will make me happy anymore, I'm sorry that you're not going to be the one who holds my hand anymore, I'm sorry you're not going to be by my side anymore. I'm sorry. Change is good. Change is for the best. Just let change take its role in life.
Since Vannara goes to my school. I see him everyday, but yet he has intern Tuesdays &Fridays. I go see him &what-not. I don't know. I'm trying not to get attached. Thiminh doesn't want me to get so attached. I'm trying. It's hard. I really like him. It's only been a couple of weeks since we been talking. No need to rush. Lol. I don't know. I try to cut down seeing &hanging out with him, its hard. Ahh. Thiminh doesn't want me to get so attached since he's leaving for college. Ahhh... =/
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