9:06 pm

my two favourite times during the day are...

• in the morning on my way to work, listening to the em and wippa (formerly known as em, wippa and ollie) show on 92.9... whether i'm in my car driving or on the bus (with my iriver on).
• on my way home from work (if i do make it before six), listening to the hamish and andy show... also on 92.9.

other than the fact that they're both hours outside work (and are thus, much more enjoyable) these two shows are actually pretty funny. hilarious actually. and stupid at times. which makes it much more enjoyable.

among the mundane daily routine of commuting to work, working, commuting back and studying at night; it seems almost necessary to have a channel where i can drift off and laugh at another person talking about his life and then get a 5- minute update on the national news. i have never discovered the joy of radio-listening until i commenced working life - i have been missing out for 20 years of my life listening to cd's.

with the cd i would never get to listen to two grown men talk about their experience of joining themselves together at the hips for 3 days in an attempt to be conjoint twins (yes they really did that).

ohhh and of course... the third favourite time of the day would be the 2-minute conversation with the boyfriend each night before going to sleep... how could i have forgotten...

9:09 pm

have you ever wondered what it would be like to not exist at all once you're dead?  does that thought scare you?  well it sure kept me thinking for one night and made me depressed.  and i told it to my sister.  and she said not to worry because if you cease to exist when you're dead, you wouldn't even know it.

if anyone feels like watching a pointless cartoon about a japanese burnt bun: Kogepan

10:00 pm

I finally went for that much needed facial treatment tonite.

She performed an analysis on my face and applied multiple types of products onto it (indicating that I am in need of dire repair). And there was some nice soothing music playing in the background. Strangely enough when she started applying one of the cream the smell of it reminded me of a particular event long time ago. It smelt like fresh grass. And I suddenly remembered myself as the high-school girl walking my dog in the field behind my house, and looking at multi-coloured kites flying in the sky. And I could even remember the sound of boys playing basketball somewhere in the neighbourhood, and how I found myself wondering whether any of them were actually good-looking.

And amidst all the hecticness of working and adult life, I had forgotten how much I miss home.

But of course if I go home now, the field will no longer be there. Development has taken over.

And I wonder if my dog (which was once the hyper puppy) would still be looking forward to take walks with me.

And I know I will no longer be wondering (or care) whether the neighbourhood boys are good-looking.

And I wonder, if anything will ever be the same again as in that world which my imagination still holds, everytime a smell reminds me of those times long ago.

11:32 pm

i am not the type of person who tries to keep everything in. to shut up when someone at work annoys you. to let it go when a random person is being rude to you. to quietly sulk when you wake up on the wrong side of bed.

so therefore i sometimes forget that there are people who do keep unnecessary outburst of emotions to themselves. and if these people happen to be people who are close to you, you can be dangerously taking advantage of the situation.

it does not necessarily mean that the person who doesn't say anything is having a better day than you are. it does not mean that that person has more time to spare than you just because he/she decides to spend time doing silly things with you tonight.

it only means that the person is much more considerate and decides not to share the woes of his/her life with the whole world.

1:09 am

feels like time whizzes by and flies right before my eyes; and i keep feeling like i should document my life because as dull and simple as i see it to be now, some ppl might actually find some amusement value in it. and the fact that i rather do it on a xanga blog than my own private journal indicates that i might be a bit more of an exhibitionist than i realise i was.

i'm at a happy place now - happy not because i've got everything i want, but more towards because i'm kinda getting an idea of what i need. but having said that, there's not much in my life which i would like to change at this point, except perhaps for my line of job. but even that, i'm starting to slowly ease into it.

it's funny how things just fall into place by itself when you least try hard...

tomorrow night is the pot luck with the malaysian theme - a theme which i myself have put into place but until now i still have no idea what i'm going to prepare. but whatever it is, i'm anticipating a day of enjoyable cooking activities and a night of good catch-ups.