| everything around me is ridiculously mediocore. |
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| my thoughts wander too often. its starting to become a problem, primarily when i drive. i just consistently run red lights, not intentionally. i just kind of shut off my mind to the world around. it feels like in garden state when zach braff is on the plane and all the oxygen masks fall down and he doesn't put his on.
i enjoy driving around aimlessly too much. its not healthy.
the bell jar is a good read. even though she was so insane, i felt her to be the sane character. despite the whole trying to commit suicide thing, there was something very endearing about her. i think that she was stating the obvious in most cases.
im changing and the separation between myself and others is becoming very apparent.
one more week left at labs. yeah. |
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| dark knight was effing amazing.
props to you heath, seriously. seeing it at midnight was well worth the sleepyness the next day.
dorm room shopping fucking blows. i just walk around aimlessly. i got some good shiz though.
im really content with my situation right now. in fact tonight was fantastic. im realizing i need to let go of being in control. spontaneity is the key. i fall fast, but regardless of all the times i was ready to throw the towel in, im happy i didnt.
dark knight in IMAX! |
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| my eye has been twitching for a couple of weeks now. i don't think it's a good sign.
im very cynical but i love seeing good things in the world. like the other day this one guy who always comes into work came in with his daughter and his wife. i never thought he would be married or let alone have a child because there is something wrong with him mentally or what have you. it was just a warming feeling to know that people who i would never expect to be happy and find something like that really can. not to mention the little girl was adorable, and im not a fan of children. it's just nice to know that people can really be happy. it sounds so depressing and generic, but forreal.
i feel like im wasting my time. but im not ready to let go. so ill do what i always do; suffer.
batman soon, aside from california and a new blade on the slicer, that will be one of my highest points of summer. |
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