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Tuesday, March 25, 2008

  • boo i suck again!
    i'm so sorrry girls .. i really do mean to update this every day!

     but considering i've been all aderalled out
    and haven't slept since sunday
    and its tuesday night ..
    let's just say i've been on the go go goooooo
    with a shit ton of school work
    hopefully tonight i will finally sleep!

    good news =
    adderall is the best appetite suppressant     in the ENTIRE world
    i haven't eaten a thing since sunday either :)
    i think i'm gonna make an appointment to get a prescription for it hopefully
    (does anyone know if its easy to get positively tested for ADD? i really do think i have it)
    i accomplish so much more than i ever could without it
    because i'm so freaking easily distracted,
    and it makes me so happy,
    and best of all i'm NEVER hungry!
    i dont even think about eating, ah it's amazing!

    still not weighing myself though, ha.
    i'll save that task for friday.

    haven't been to the gym in a few days
    but hopefully i'll get a chance tomorrow
    blah college can be too much work somtimes.

    anyway, sorry this is so quick and sloppy and all over the place
    my mind is out there right now
    off to finish my work
    REAL update tomorrow with thinspo and comments and everything!

    stay strong beauties!

Sunday, March 23, 2008

  • sorry i haven't been on girls!
    my internet at home really sucks, and i just got back to school..

    so here's an update :)
    i made it 'til about 4:00 pm on saturday on the fast
    which i was pretty happy with..
    i went out to eat with a bunch of girlfriend's
    got a salad with parmesan cheese & low-fat ranch
    & my last weigh in on sat morning wassss..
    108.6!

    that was seriously such an awesome feeling
    and i've made a promise not to weigh myself until friday
    since i'm sure it's gone up, that will make me stay on track
    so that the next number i see is hopefully still close to that

    today, Easter, i had brunch with the fam ...
    small serving a mashed potatoes (bad idea)
    spinach salad with vinagrette dressing (not too terrible)
    some candy (bad idea again)
    :-/

    not sure what my weight is now,
    but i haven't eaten since around 6 oclock
    soooo i'm planning on nothing/
    fruits & veggies if i have to for the rest of the week

    i hope everyone had an awesome holiday!
    keep up the great work ladies

    <333

Thursday, March 20, 2008


  • my internet is being retarded
    so i'll reply to all yall tomorrow!
    thanks for all the support, lovessss!
    ♥
    goodnight for now!




    ♥♥♥
    111.2!
    (weighed in at 4:00 on thursday)
    =]

    i love liquid fasts
    & i haven't been to the gym yet,
    so hopefully more will come off.
     plus i drank a ton of water before weighing myself
    so perhaps it's even lower? wishful thinking i guess..

    how's everyone hanging in there?
    stay strong <3 think thin.
    its worth it!

    edit..
    outtake -
    hour on the elliptical - 723 cals
    400 crunches



Wednesday, March 19, 2008

  • alllriighttt
    come on day 3!

    so i didn't post my weight on monday morning
    because it was disgusting ..
    but it was 116.8 (ew)
    that's like 6 pounds up from my last weigh in
    pretty sure that was all gained back over the weekend because i was depressed
    blaaah i dont even wanna think about that..

    BUT
    today (wednesday morning)
    i'm at 112.4!
    4 pounds in 2 days!
    i'm so excited.
    i know its up from my last weight,
    but i have a feeling i'm gonna lose it & keep it off this time.
    hopefully..

    i've decided to set a realistic goal of 105 by April 18
    I know i can obviously get down to 105 in a month
    but i need to lose it and KEEP IT OFF
    i have formals that weekend in tennessee
    so i need to look good :)
    i would like to be at 100, but 105 is acceptable.

    anyway, the fast is still great!
    i made it to the gym at 9 this morning
    hour on the elliptical again (only 612 cals - gay ass hyper-extended knee..)
    4 bottles of water already - jesusssss .. ha
    im pretty dizzy and shaky but i'm gonna keep it up!
    seeing that 4 pound loss in 2 days reminds me why it's worth it.
    i hope you girls are doing alright!
    keep me updated!

    <3333


Tuesday, March 18, 2008


  • hey girls!
    i'm really excited about this fast :)
    it's great to have so many of you participating!
    i know it makes it so much easier for all of us!

    i'm trying to make it through sunday around 4
    because I have an Easter dinner I have to eat with my family
    that's gonna be really rough,
    but I have hope I can make it ..
    once i make it to thurs it shouldn't be difficult

    chugging water after water really curves my hunger
    because i feel soooooo full -
    i personally have a hard time drinking diet soda
    because i HATE carbonation
    but for those of you who don't
    that probably makes you feel even fuller :)

    also,
    it's better to drink distilled water
    rather than faucet water when on a fast
    because it's better at flushing the toxins from your body

    anywhooooo-
    so far today i've had a ridiculous amount of water
    i think i pee like 4 times an hour ha

    i have class from 12:30-1:45
    then hopefully making it to the gym tonight
    the Yankees are playing our baseball team tonight
    so parking is ridiculous

    hope you girls are doing fabulous!
    keep me updated :)
    ♥

    [edit]
    just got back from the gym :)
    hour on the elliptical - 766 cals, h yeaaahh
    however i think i effed up my knee :(
    about to do crunches/weights in my room..

    intake - water water water!
    and a diet rockstar for some energyyy (20 cals)

    this is gonna pay off girls, think about how much weight will be dropped by the end!
    stay strong babydolls..











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  • rachel <3 height: 5 ft 3. hw: 136 lw: 98 gw: 100 cw: check posts* i hate my body. i hate the fact that i'm unhappy in my size 2 jeans. i hate my hips. my thighs. my arms. my stomach. everything. i'm anorexic. i cant remember the last time i sat down and enjoyed a meal for all it's worth. i dread meals with family and friends, but most of all with my boyfriend. he cares, and loves me how i am, which is why i love him so much, but he just doesn't get it. not everyone knows how hard it is to be so uncomfortable in your own skin. i have a million secrets that only a few have uncovered. i hate food. i hate it's effects. i hate thinking about it traveling through my body and how many calories everything has. when i do eat, i live off of fruit, salad, and pita chips. i am a vegetarian. i have wonderful friends. i drink a lot - a habit i need to break if i want to lose weight. i have recently become obsessed with the gym - thank god. i will be 100 pounds by may.