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Name: Chara
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Birthday: 12/12/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: I must admit i do have an addiction to trouble so beware...but besides that: Glitter-Being weird(i am VERY good at that ; p)-Kittens(mine's named Elvis)-Mosh Pits-Knives-Punks-Music-Women who like women-Running-Walking-Sleeping-Rap-Finger Painting-Sugar-Punk rock drama queens-Caffine- Movies-Cars-Races-Mudd Wrestling-Poetry-Shopping-Therapy-Abuse-WWE(John Cena, Rey Mysterio, Lita)-Glossy double cover spreads-Asphalt(cuz it has the sound ass in it)-Drums-Thongs-Love-Cherries-Kisses-Piercings(everywhere ; p)-Social Drinking/Smoking-Chocolate-Black Roses-Hot Topic-Make-Up-Watermelon-Books-Fake Diamonds-Rock-hair dye[FUSCIA!]-Photography-Marylin Monroe <3-Flip Flops(always wearing em')-Playing Pool-Playstation 2-Painting-Blue & Black(my heart is= /)-Jacuzzis---anything that can move me out of this horrible place....
Expertise: ScHoOl! (blah) I am a sophmore at Stevenson and it is the hardest school that loves to make my life HELL! But otherwise, i have a many expertise, if you wanna find out, come over...; p
Message: message me
AIM:  xxhazeyeyezxx
Yahoo:  bcomeaddicted
Member Since:
5/25/2004
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| Hopefully people will be able to understand this: I'm writing this to those who are reading this. It makes sense that I should write things I want you to see as apposed to things that I feel. But, isn't that what a journal is for? To express how you feel in private, subdued manner? One would think so, but a lot of people want to know what others are thinking. Sometimes they have no consideration of privacy nor do they want to ask a person, simply ask, "What's up?" or "How are you?". They want to look for themselves and see what this person is thinking without the person's consent or permission, and some thoughts may be irrational and not exactly meaningful. Some thoughts may be true and some may be complete lies. The only reason a person would lie, in my opninion, is if they are thinking irrationally, they are mad or upset about something. People shouldn't be able to read these things because they are private thoughts, and they aren't meant to be seen by anyone. ANYONE at all. Even those who are curious enough to find them. Curiousity killed the cat, didn't it? That's the story I've always heard. Well, I was thinking, if I went digging for dirt, I shouldn't be suprised if I find some right? Right... P.s. This is going to be my last entry for a while and maybe even forever. I have no desire to share my thoughts with anyone or anything, if not in person. There is always that slight chance that curiousity will unleash those secrets that I don't wish to be known. I am going to keep to myself... forever, most likely. | | |
| funny funny funny.
so i was reading my past entries and like last year around this time i was writing a blog at my mom's work for her x-mas party. well, i'm doing the same exact thing again!!!!! lol. so yeah. i don't feel like talking about my life because i just don't feel like that would be purposeful. if you know what i mean. besides, my life is just, yeah. besides the fact that i turned 18 like 2 weeks ago nothing is that special nor grand. but...I'M 18 AND IT FEELS GREAT.
i can buy ciggerettes now and go to the tittie bar.
me and beki are gonna do that when she turns 18, but i don't wanna wait that long!!!!!!! lol
peace love and guinea pigs.
love.love.love.
Chara
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| SENIOR YEAR BABY <3so he commented me. i can't stand this. yeah i still think about him but i thought it was forever. and then it ended and i thought that would be forever too. i guess nothing is forever.
so it's senoir year...weird. i hate it but thats okay.. i mean i graduate in like a few months and i'm turning 18 in like 24 days. fuck its so close but so far. i smoke even more than i did ever. i'm like a nutcase. i can't even handle this year. everyone is so fucked up. i'm just trying really hard not to lose myself.
jj if your reading this, i'm gonna try to call you today i guess.
-Me-
i don't know why i still care....considering he trampled on my heart...
now i hate men and people tell me that they think i won't let anyone love me.
sure i've had boyfriends since we broke up, plenty in fact, not as much as i was with when we were together...(oops)
but enought ot make me happy. but i wasn't and everytime we got close to the three-letter-phrase...i walked away, told them off, hated them, because i'm so so afraid it's gonna happen again. | | |
| Where Is Your Boy Tonight?Wow so it's been a while. Nobody writes in their xangas anymore...it's just myspace myspace myspace. I'm on the phone with my best guy friend Alejandro. I love him cuz I know he won't leave me. My brother just left for the Army about an hour ago and I miss him so much already. My dad was never there. Always somewhere else. Alex is the only guy that hasn't left me and i hope he never will. This girl that called me her best friend is now "with" the guy I like. But, this always happens. That's why i vow to not like any guy that my friends know. Because no matter what happens it never works out and that person always wins. Everyone gets what they want before me, because the nice guy, or girl always finishes last. It's kinda making me sad but, I'm gonna be sad for a while. I want my brother to come back and I want that space inside me to be full again. I really don't want to be lonely anymore.
God I hate being in love and then getting your heart broken, it really fucked me up.
So, I'm going to Hawaii in a few weeks for spring break, hopefully it will be as good as last time. Lol. Some people know what I'm talking about. Also, for a graduation present next year I'm going to Europe, present from my parents. Hopefully my brother will definitly be going and Dan will be going and it will be fuckin sweet. I need that time to hurry up and come because I need my brother to be home again. Geez, I'm gonna go nuts. It's okay tho cuz me and Bella from IHOP already got a plan to take a road trip to Texas in the summer. My brother kinda got involved with her before he left. She really does like him a lot.
I'm gonna go wait for prince charming(meaning any guy cute and that thinks i am) and chill. But he has to be nice too, I could never like a guy that isn't genuinely nice. So yeah. This was fun and it got some of the heat off my back. Weight off my shoulders, whatever.
Love me. Love me not.
-C- | | |
| WHOA!!! Xanga time!!! Well, myspace is the better thing these days but i still like my xanga...plus it's really fun to look at! Lol. So, school is pretty good, I'm doing good in every class but english, which is odd considering i always do good in english. But, i'm acing all of my other classes. Junoir year is so bitchin. I am at my mom's work right now for her x-mas party...supposed to help out and shit...blah! But it's tradition...I've done it every year since my mom has organized the x-mas party.
MY BIRTHDAY WAS LAST MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!! I'm officially 17. Goddamn does it feel good. Seriously, I can stay out later, my mom lets me do more things...I have so much more freedom than I used too. Even though my curfew is only extended 30 minutes...w/e. I sat there talking to my mom about later and she's like "Chara...it's a dangerous world out there..." It's like "oh, yeah mom, the last time i stayed out til 3 in the morning...this giant gorilla man ate my friend and it was really super sad..." NOTHING THAT BAD CAN HAPPEN IN BUFFALO-FUCKING-GROVE
I like brian still, he just turned 21!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN!!! Today is actuslly his birthday...I hope he has one of the best ones ever...that's what the big 21 is supposed to be!!!
Well, I'm tired and I need to go check out my myspace now...COMMENT BITCHES!!!
Love me. Love me not.
-C-
p.s. Check out the new chatterbox!!! WeWt!!! | | |
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