I think I am back.  I need help here.  I have not been this low (mentally) in
a very long long long time.  I am quite sure it is due to my massive weight
gain.  I am such a dissapointment to all!

Help me ladies
HELP!

me

Thanks for hanging in there with me ladies.  I have become an unbelievable BLIMP.  I felt like I had not done as bad as I thought it could have been until I stepped on the scale yesterday morning and saw a HUGE HUGE number of 130.  Yes 100 and 30 POUNDS!  Damn me.  This morning it was 129 so my goal is 120 for the next couple of weeks. 
Class starts tomorrow, so getting back into the swing of things gets me very motivated. 

Break was quite good.  Nothing bad happened which is always a plus. 
I got a new cell phone and a new iPod, some clothes, and new pearls so I have come back to school feeling quite good.

I am trying the 48-hour diet drink tomorrow.
Any comments on what its like?

I hope you all had a FABULOUS new year!
STAY STRONG!
me

Well, Im babysitting again, which is a chance to update
Things have been going well, should be better, but nonetheless, not horrible like I expected while being home for break.  Today I only had a thing of light yogurt and one corndog mini a few minutes ago.  Yesterday went well until I went to a friends house to wrap gifts for foster children in the community and we had Chinese food and about 4 glasses of wine.  But hopefully I can make up for it in the next few days.
You would be proud of me, this morning when I woke up I really wanted a breakfast biscuit from some godaweful fast food resturant and I kept debating, then in like a split second, i god strong adn decided against it!  I was happy with my willpower, just wish it would be that strong all the time.  Dont we all though?

Since I have been home in this week and a half, I have had 3 or 4 skinny comments AND my youth leader from high school told me that people from church keep commenting to her on how thin I have become.  THEN today when the children were dropped off from school, I went out to meet them adn the lady who brings them home says to me, "You are looking soo good!  How have you lost all this weight?  When I went to college, I GAINED weight!"  hahahaha, if she only knew how it was for me.  I told her that the dinning hall food is that bad that I just dont like it. hahaha  Two of the comments I recieved referred to me as "wasting away" YES!  That is what I like to hear even though I feel like a blimp!  Those comments just make me drive harder and harder to get rid of this blubber. 
Hopefully I can stay as strong as I feel right now.
And you all too!!!!!
STAY STRONG!
me

Well HELLLLOOOO ladies!
Thanks so much for all the comments and not totally writting me off yet!  hahaa

Break is going better than I had thought.  I have not purged
And I have been able to keep myself under some sort of control.  Nothing like I would like, but you know. 
The other day, in order to keep me from B/Ping, I spent two hours cleaning my mom's kitchen from top to bottom, inside and out!  Then I spent the REST OF THE DAY scrubbing the floors and then WAXING THEM!  hahaha
I am babysitting right now, and will this coming week, so that will help with the bordom too.  Im just a little worried about what the holiday brings when our house is FULL of TONS of food and too many damn people.  I will be thinking about all of you though!! 
Not much else is going on around these parts, except that I got ALL A's except one C for my final grades and I was okay with that since I really didn't expect but 2 of those As.  So I will take that.  Then the other night we had a terrible ice storm here and knocked out power literally everywhere and we all had to stay home with nothing to do.  MAN, I dont know what they did back in the day with no power. sheesh

STAY STRONG!
me

I'm trying hard with my updates, I promise!