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Im hooooooome!!!!

So it seems...that I have completed my summer classes! Yayness! And Im attempting to break the ice with my two roommate via facebook group message asking who's all bringing what. Holy freakin crap I just did some weird facebook stalker crap and found out where one of my roomates is from and she's CANADIAN!! Sweet Im living with a foreigner! How cool is that dude?!?!?! I dont know I think I get this weird thing about whenever I hear Canada since Degrassi is filmed there...lol. Yeah Imma loser. Anyway, Im home for good until I run off to art collge (IN NEW YORK!!!) in the fall(ish). So yeah that means more thinspo updates and they should be longer too! YAY!!!! Guess I should get on that heh? My gosh my freakin room smells DISGUSTING. My dog has been living in here while I was away and well...I wanted to vomit when I entered the room when I got back to say the least. I guess that wouldnt really be saying the least cos that's pretty drastic. So I febrezed the room and Im going to continue doing so until I finally freakin mop and disinfect everything. Im going to need to go on like some sort of a cleaning/trowing the access shit out spreee before I leave because I mean...I cant take all of this junk to college with me and my sister has dibs on my room like as soon as I leave lol. Ugh, cleaning. Tis horrible! We're all staying over my friend's house this Saturday and He's supplying the liquor and we all plan to get pretty fucked up. Sweetness :D

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FREAKIN CRAP! I think Ive found a way to fix the weird thing my phone does that make it freeze when ever I text but I CANT REMEMBER MY FREAKIN SECURITY CODE!!! I hate the world three times over...It's an ass sucking black hole, s'what it is!!!

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they look like dumb hoes haha

We all watched Hard Candy yesterday and apparentlt Ellen Page was "so sexy" when she took her top off (as shown in this clip). Yeah...she's tiny.

Tis all folks. See yas!

Back to the old grind...

My gosh...this is the last week of Upward Bound for me for like...ever. It's amazing. Anyway, I go back tonight which means I get to see everyone including Him. I hope he doesnt think Im completely stupid now...And i hope he still wants to party after the program is over. See, we have this plan that we're all going to have a bonfire and just kinda get trashed and stuff as a last hurrah sorta celebration thing. It should be kinda awesome. I hope. Anyway, not much to say, Im almost down to the one hundred forties which means Im making progress at least. So yeah...thinspo.

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That's all for now. Stay strong peeps.

Ooh the excitement!

So...I got drunk yesterday with my UB roomie and a few of my other people. And well...Ive never been that drunk before and when Im really drunk apparently I love everyone. It was funny pretty freakin hilarious actually. Now see He wasnt there but his roommate was. But I texted him drunken nonscense and he called me and I talked to him in a very very intoxicated state. Honestly I dont remember most of the conversation...I'll have to ask him what I said tomorrow or something. Anyway, yeah I had to get up early today and thank gosh I didnt have a hangover (I think it was cos I was still a little buzzed) and I went to the Indiana Black Expo and got tons of free shit. And then I got home and got my room assignment for this fall which rooooocks. Shaweet huh? Im about to message one of my roomies on facebook riiiiight now!

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All these feelings...tis crap.

OK...so I think its happening again. I seem to have this disease where I get this wild idea in my head that the guys that I like and have no chance with...like me back. Or notice me or whatever. See, we were all up suuuper late last night/this morning and we were all just talking and ranting about well just different shit. When they got to relationships naturally I just shut my mouth and listened because well Ive never been in a relationship you see. Yes, Im almost 18 yrs old...going to be a freshman in art college...and Ive never even been kissed. Yeah, Im working on the whole body thing to help out with that too...Anyway, as I  said I think its just my stupid needy brain but I kept catching His eye and almost everytime I looked up at Him, he was looking at me. I dont know I just dont know. We get along so freakin well...we're all planning to get drunk after our classes are over sometime before everyone goes off to their home colleges and who knows maybe the oppourtunity will com about for us to hook up like...once. Lol yeah right as if he actually likes me like that. Anyway, I hardly ate yesterday and Ive been counting calories today and I feel super good. Like...isnt it funny how much more attractive you feel when you know that you barely ate or like...you feel hungry? I dunno. Anyway, quickie on the thinspo I feel like Vicky's Secret theme!

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Oh...my gosh. I hate the world and my life. He might think I have a huge crush on His ROOMMATE!!! What the fuck?! My friend told me that either He or She said that they think I have a huge crush on His roommate who is like...a brother to me. This sucks it really does. And she doesnt remember who it was that said it so it can be either Him or Her!!! What the crap?! I hate how things work out for me...I make an extra effort to be around him, I talk to him about his problems and shit, I talk to him about music, I talk to him about art, I even listened to a CD he reccommended to me today, I watched a movie with him alone on the same freakin bed and we have been getting along GREAT...and He thinks I have a fucking crush on His ROOMMATE?!?! Yeah...my nonexistant love life...is SHIT. Oh and I got over a thousand hits this week and only a few comments. SHOW ME SOME FREAKING LOVE IM NOT GETTING ANY FROM THE PEOPLE AROUND HERE THAT'S FOR DAMN SURE!!!!

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Tis all folks. Loves kisses and comments :D

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Le sigh. *woah*

So yesterday was pretty cool and a little depressing at the same time...See I watched a movie with Him yesterday. My other friend (his roommate) was there at the beginning but he got destracted and left in the beginning so it was just us two...on his bed. Lol nothing happened really. He was kinda laying down and I was sitting down next to him, his head was right at my side. Anyway, I realized that I like talking to him. Just like...about surrounding things and stuff. We watched Wall E or however you spell it and the movie was super cute. We both liked it. Anyway yeah, then later (like one in the morning later) a couple of us were all outside talking about some recent drama with Her and He mentioned how he moved on and was talking to someone else...boo hoo said my heart...but then he mentioned how she just told him she has a frakin kid...hope is alive. Anyway, then I started thinking about how he's moved on and still doesnt like me (i think) and well...it's just not going to happen. So I cried myself to sleep because I was being Self-Pity Betty and thinking about how I'll never be happy in life and Im hideous and all that junk. But yeah, Im kinda over it (for now) and Im just appreciating the friendship (again. for now.). So yeah...thinspo anyone?

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just a little international thinspo there lol. So stay strong and all that junk loves and kisses!!!