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Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 04:11:55 GMT

ok so ... i finally graduated

i start at waynesburg college in august

i got my own amazing laptop for graduation and i love it

im doing pretty well ...

some things are wonderfull

and some things are not so wonderfull

well

nothing is all wonderfull .. you know

everything has something about it that isnt wonderfull ... something that could use some improvement ...

but youll have that i suppose

living in the real world and all

i read catcher in the rye

and it is pretty much my favorite book of all time now

its great

the point of view of the narrator is .. abnormal ... but in a good way...

it is just altogether a great book and i think everyone should take the time to read it at some point in their lives ... because the issues discussed in it will effect everyone at some point or another ... some earlier than others ... but all will see what the narrator refers to as "phoniness"

well i suppose that is enough ... i havent written here in like forever

and now that ive pitched my fav book ... i think my work here is done

so .. people of the world ... if you hear nothing else that i say .. hear that you should read catcher in the rye ... it will change your life .... or at least the way you look at some situations ...

Friday, February 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 23:52:24 GMT

wow im such a loser
i was reading old posts on here ... and im so stupid ... lol

so yeah ...
i am graduating soon
not soon enough to be truthfull
i cant wait
i just want to be in college
haha
and not in high school

well ... life in general .. is pretty good currently
in case you were wondering :P lol

youth group is going well .... i <3 it ....

i really like my psych class .... its cool ... except the teacher gets sidetracked easily which is quite frustrating

i like almost all of my classes
i dont really like the people in them
people are so gay these days
lol
with the exception of a chosen few
lol
i bet i sound really conceded by now ... oh well

umm theres a fall out boy concert may 22 in pittsburgh that i hope to go to
im so stoked

in case you didnt know Patrick Stump and i are getting married <3 :P

i think "this anit a scene its an arms race" is an absolutley amazing song

and i think that the color pink is quite unappealing

well ... i guess that was pretty random

and i also guess ill shut up now

ill write again some time when im as bored as i am now
which is pretty stinkin bored ... lol

<3Jewel<3

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 01:22:03 GMT

so everything kinda sucks right now and i have no idea why ... i just feel like crying all the time ... without any explination ... and i hate it ... and i dont know what to do ... i dont know why this happens to me and i just want it all to stop ... ive been this way for about a week ... and i dont know why ... nothing happend... im just not happy .... and im tired of pretending to be happy in front of my friends .... im just tired of everything
i feel like im doing somthing wrong ... like im not where i supposed to be ... and i dont know what to do .... i just want to fix it but i dont know how ... i just cant pretend to be okay any more .... im tired of it ... i just dont know what to do .... i cant sleep ... i cant do anything ... i just feel like im going to burst into tears all the time ... and i dont know why ... and i feel like im letting people down ... i dont know why .. but i feel like my not being where i am supposed to be is letting other people down
i am one of the two seniors in my youth group .. i remember in the past .. in youth group .. the seniors have been the ones that have had it all together ... and everything seems great .. they know what they want and how to do it ... and i just feel like i am a failure because i dont ... i dont have any idea what i need to be doing after i leave high school .... i have no fucking idea what i should be doing ... i cant fix and i feel like i should be a role model for the younger kids in my youth group and im not ... when i was younger i looked up to the older kids .. becasue they seemed liek they had no problems ... and i am not like that ... im a mess and i cant explain why .. and i hate it ... idk what to do ....

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 00:22:50 GMT

so this is how it goes
~~People~~ are so gay
basically
the entire human race is stupid
People fight over stupid things that wont actually ever have any impact on their lives. its so freaking stupid. people exist to simply cause trouble. especially girls . Teenage girls are the worst thing in the world.. haha i am a teenage girl but .. im an exception ... because i really dont care what ppl think ... and i do what i want .. and im not fake ...
i think the worst thing a person can do is pretend to b somthing theyre not ... or pretend to like somthing just because someone else does ...
for example music
evedentally there is some unwritten rule that you cant like pop or rap ~~AND~~ punk. and if you do , youre a poser
well i say ... thats pretty gay ...
and people who think that are pretty gay
steryotypes are gay
people are people and they dont need to b freaking catagorized
i guess im just rambling ... but little stuff like this just really pisses me off

there is this entire group of kids at my school that call themselves either "punk" "goth" "emo" or "rebels" and they claim to be individuals .... ironically half of the school population claims to fit into this clique .... so ... im not seeing how that is individual....
dont get me wrong .. there are a few that would be put into this group that actually do have opinions of their own ... and i appoligize to any of them...
but most of those kids .. just do it because ... thays what their friends do
its so stupid
why cant people just .... be who they want to be .... like what they really like .... and do what tehy want to do ... not what people tell them to do ...
i guess im just rambling ....
haha
sorry
so .. there ya go ... piece of ~~my mind~~ ... <3

blah

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 15:19:35 GMT

well
I officially ~~quit~~

Monday, October 23, 2006

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 20:18:21 GMT

So I never really write here any more. Anything that I write, I dont want people to read, and if i do write anything on the web it is on Myspace, But i still really like Xanga a lot. umm not much has happened do me since i write last time. Last time i said it was almost time for youth advance, and it is past now. It was amazing, moreso than I had ezpected. My youth group got so close and we seemed unbreakable. But now things are starting to go back to the way they were before the trip, and I really dont want to let that happen. I dont want to lose the closeness we had.
Also at youth advance, I felt such a passion to reach out to people in my school, and I am finding that that is slowly fading away too. I can not let go of that passion i had, it is my senior year, this is my last chance to make a difference in my school and i dont want to waste it. But sometimes i cant help but feel discouraged, and today has been one of those times. I just feel like everything that can go wrong is going wrong.

So , on a diffrent subject, school is going ok, i like most of my classes. I finally hace APEURO, the calss that I hace looked forward to since i was a sophmore. I also have Physics, which I really like. Then theres Psychology, which as a subject in general I like, but I hate the class because of the teacher. He spends half of the period lecturing us about how he is not going to remind us about asignments. He says the class is supposed to prepare us for college, but he tells us everyday to make sure we have everything done. It really irritates me. Then in the afternoon i have physical fittness, which i love , multicultural choir , which is ok,, keyboarding which I am doing well in , and English 12 , which is unbelievably easy.
In English class, we just finished reading Beowulf which I really liked(it was the first really recognized piece of engligh literature written in the anglo-saxon period in England) and now we are starting the Cantebury tales.

So not much has happened but if anything exciting does I'll difinantally write it on here ... because i know that most of my friends dont use this any more
So goodbye for now
lots of love to everyone Jewel V. Wrick

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 00:20:54 GMT

umm.. yeah.I.havent.been.on.xanga.in.a.long.time.I.guess.myspace.
has.kind.of.stolen.my.web.time.sorry.well.i.dont.really.have.that.
much.to.say.I.guess.some.new.stuff.has.happened.since.i.have.been.
on.here.I.got.my.nose.pierced.as.a.gift.from.my.dad.for.passing.
my.drivers.test.and.I.turned.17.the.11th.
i.guess.thats.about.it.nothing.really.exciting.really.ever.happens.
to.me.
I.am.a.senior.now.and.i.am.so.excited.about.my.class.schedule.YAY!.
aperuo!.idk.my.life.isnt.that.exciting.
i.got.a.new.media.player.thingy.for.my.birthday.and.i.love.it.Youth.
advance.is.comming.up.soon.and.i.cant.wait.it.is.going.to.be.amazing.
umm..i.guess.i.have.run.out.of.things.to.talk.about.
i.dont.really.write.here.or.on.the.net.at.all.for.that.matter.very.often
so.if.you.want.to.see.anything.i.write.check.out.my.myspace.which.anyone.
who.reads.this.probably.already.has.but.for.the.record.it.is.
www.myspace.com/queenofthemoon . yeah.i.think.thats.it.for.now.
love.to.everyone.<3
JEWEL <3

Friday, June 02, 2006

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 00:41:15 GMT

i am a flower quickly fading

here today and gone tomorow

a wave tossed in the ocean

a vapor in the wind

still u hear me when im calling

lord you catch me when im falling

and you've told me who i am

i am yours

i love that song .. and i wish i could just let go of everything compleetley .. nothing makes sense anymore .. and i just want to cry all the time ... but of course i cant ... i never freaking can .. AHH i just want to scream but i cant i cant say how i feel and i hate it ... GRR.."does anybody hear her ..does anybody see"

Friday, May 19, 2006

Fri, 19 May 2006 01:26:05 GMT

well if i knew that it would end up like this i would never have wasted my time. i dont think i even changed anything. i wish it hadnt ever happened. i guess i am going to have to just get over it and let the summer come and forget about this past year ..

great literary works aey

i cant even say what i mean and want to say

GRRR

i just want to fix all the crap thats wrong

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Sun, 14 May 2006 20:11:50 GMT

hi everyone

how are you

im ok i guess

bored

finally got dsl

so yeah

im me