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| This sucks, I'll be gone for a while...Yeah. So, here's a breakdown of my life right now. My mom is
depressed. She's been out of a job for ___ months and is basically just
pissed off at life and sits here doing nothing. I'm concerned for her, not only for that but for her apparent dislike of me
because, so far, I've been able to afford small luxuries like gas to
visit friends and eat out now and again. She treats me like I'm the cause of all her problems sometimes, and I'm truly, TRULY, sick of it. As
of this month, I'm paying my own insurance on the car, as well as
paying for all of my own gas and food. Somehow, it's not enough to be
able to do that. It's like somehow I'm still at fault for whatever it is I'm doing... It's almost making ME depressed.
In other news, I'm
enlisting, and soon. Apparently I've been able to do so since August
but a retard at the recruiters office, due to poor wording and a
misunderstanding between two other people, made me believe otherwise.
Before the 31st I will go to Meps and take the ASVAB and HOPEFULLY have
a job I can get immediately. I'll probably leave sometime in March
though, for basic and tech. First of all, I REALLY need to pay off my
credit cards... and I want to have a little money in the bank before I
go. It'll piss off my mom even more, I'm sure. Hell, she'll be pissed
I'm not going active duty and getting out of her hair for the next 6
years. But, most likely, she'll still be sitting here feeling
pitiful for herself by the time I leave... so what's to say she'll be any more pissed than
she already is?
What's worse, though, is I feel like I've lost
my religion. Not so much that I don't believe it, but that I don't
have to drive to practice it, to live it... it's the most empty and
horrible feeling I've ever had...
As of tomorrow, I won't have
the internet, or a house or cell phone. SO, if you want to get ahold
of me, email me at stephen.saponara@gmail.com and I'll get back to you
as soon as I can. I'd appreciate your prayers, if you are religious,
for my family right now, they certainly need it, as do I... Cheers,
Stephen
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| Yeah, it's me... I'm still here, and what's more: I'm pissed.
GOD I can't WAIT to get into the guard, I felt helpless and like I didn't really have a reason to try, but I have one definite reason now: my mother. She's overly critical, and complains that I'm a hypocrite when she sinks to all time lows in that area. Once I can get into the guard, when I come home, I'm gonna pay 1/3 of the electrical bill and water bill, and then do everything else myself. Then she can't complain about me not helping out b/c in reality, that's all I really use... I hate life right now
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| Yep21 today, my bishes. I'll let you know how things turn out 
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| Air Natl. GuardWell, finally got my act together. I should swear in this time next week after I get the ASVAB and get the drug test / physical done over in Columbus. I know I can pick the date to leave for basic, so for those of you in Dayton, I'll be here through my birthday (the 27th). Feel free to call me if you'd like to do something before I leave, I'd really enjoy it!
**EDIT**
Yeah, MEPs hates me and I need to lose 10 lbs. So I'll be in town through September... which means I need a job... DANG IT.
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| Teh LakeWell, I haven't done much down here since I've arrived minus go to school. However, after VBS yesterday, Kendrick's family invited my sister and I, along with Casey and Mrs. Edna Gibson, to go out on the lake in their pontoon boat for the day. Let me tell ya I loved every minute of it! I really haven't been out on a lake since I was in the scouts back in '04. I learned how to knee-board (though I'm not that great, I learned on a non-beginner's board) and went tubing as well! We all had a great time, but my arms are SO tired right now. I need to go get ready for church, but I felt like writing an entry here ^^ I need to revive this thing, really.
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