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Not so Tough

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 12:34:44 GMT

If you know how unhappy I am, because of you.

Would you feel guilty and be hurt as much as me?

Fabian is back to HK, so glad to c him again, look like us 2 r not in gd shape atm... but we went to watch 'Hulk' (the green thingie) lol not too bad

Goretti is finally in a proper relationship again, unlike me. hahaahaa sometimes i really wish i could beat myself up or please please please god please give me a sign. wud u? pleaseee!

festivals, special days... fathers day, grandpas gathering dinner, his bday (i cant even type his name, when i just type I, i shed tears...) y ? i thought god forsake.

y u do this to me? y u did all those things to me? i just wanna ask him for the unwelcome truth. wud u please lord, please make me brave.

cry cry baby, cried nxt to the habour for many hours, this person lied to me, over n over, karma, is that what you are? if i ve to cut someone loose in my life, who wud that be?

u people wanna break me, come break me. i wud be so torn, & so bloody, my bones wud be crashed by your cruelty, u may as well eat my flesh n drink my blood!

b/t u & i

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 14:38:48 GMT

Girl your so Fine
You blow my mind
all them other girls, i've left behind
At the same time you'll be mine
just give it some time
This could be the biggest sign.

Boy you are so fine, one of a kind,

I guess the Lord took his time,

Damn fine, I rewinded you in my mind,

Baby boy Take your time,

I believe one day you would be mine.

February - Vday Love

Sat, 26 Apr 2008 14:36:28 GMT

Excuse me,

Have you seen my heart?

It's very delicate.

Sometimes it falls when I drop my defenses.

It drops like ping pongs and bounce to many places.

I do not want to make any more false promises,

'cos I swear I hate breaking you one more promise.

I know, my dear, you are tired of all the sadness;

Me too, I am tired of my childishness.

Here I am, apologising for all

and dare asking for more.

In no position of any option,

Loving you is my only notion.

Smoothing your heart with vanilla lotion,

To prove you are my ocean,

Having your baby in another nation.

One love forever to the next generation!

RE: Monday, November 05, 2007

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 09:30:42 GMT

Dear Stephanie,

It has been two months, I am sorry that things might not have turned out as perfect or well.

The long red festival is finally over. As you see, many things were out of your control,

if in the end you really don't have the energy to keep everything in place;

perhaps it's ok to think about him when you are kissing someone else...

If that 'someone' doesn't want to talk to you in the end, say you are sorry...

I am truly sorry. (the reason that you started the relation was not good, so if he wanted to quit now, let him go.)

If that 'him' you are thinking of is not interested in the end, please don't hate but say good bye too.

God bless you

Ning Ning

RE: Monday, November 05, 2007

若最後無力留下你

將消失勇氣釋放自己

就算某天我吻別人	亦當親你

But you...

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 13:18:29 GMT

頭上那燈飾

照上今晚最光最亮

卻照亮我的寂寞

Lonely Christmas Lonely Christmas

Merry Christmas Merry Christmas

人浪中想真心告白

但你只想聽聽笑話

Monday, November 05, 2007

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 05:59:50 GMT

若最後無力留下你

將消失勇氣釋放自己

就算某天我吻別人	亦當親你

tap

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 07:14:49 GMT

一碰就痛一想就悲愛一遍教人老了好幾十歲

I think I have been acting silly now, it's not like he knows how I feel or how I think. I didn't even let him know where I am. What and how I am doing...

I am sorry of the delay, a delay that affecting you and me, in all sort of ways.
I just don't want to touch it anymore, I am not ready for it. That's why I choose to let it delayed and delayed, week after week. I am still standing on the same spot, thinking of the same thing.

How long could I be in hide? God knows a comedy would be a trigger and made me cry? One line, one song ' kiss me goodbye, and I will try not to cry...' made me cry for 2 days now.

When would this stop? What shall I do?

Thanks Fabz & Grace for sharing my tear and your time. xxx

kiss me goodbye and i will try not to cry

Monday, October 15, 2007

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 17:02:22 GMT

What am I thinking of?

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 13:40:48 GMT

dot dot dot

I feel so lonely tonight.

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 19:18:19 GMT

''Time that she is happy but yet sad.
Time that she is cheerful and yet depressed.
Her heart is like a needle in ocean.
To love her is my only notion.''

''You are my sun and my light.
I wish i am Earth, orbiting round your sight.
For what i see, my gentleman, delight.
My love, and red rose bud alike.''

Suddenly, I want to hold your hands tonight.

*kiss*

(ref: from my bro)