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Name: Stephy <3
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Monday, April 03, 2006

BRANDEIS '10 IT IS!


I feel so stupid now... I have become a total fool this time... but whatever, at least its better that I see things now than later... ever since we've been here... people have warned me about getting to close with the guys here... I didn't listen to them then so now I have to pay the price... Yesterday, I promised myself that this is going to be the last time that I am going to cry for him. I am so hurt now. Why can't I stop my tears from coming out? I am going to try to forget about him. I am going to use my tears to wash him away from my heart. I don't get why are human relationships so complicated? Yesterday, we said we were going to be together forever, but today we act if we are strangers to each other. I hate promises because they don't last. You said you were going to protect me, but who knows that you end up being the person who is hurting me the most. Honestly, I never thought I would fell for anyone as I did foryou. It is kind of ridiculous. I feel stupid just by writing this entry now... I don't get how you can act perfectly normal in front of me today... I have been trying so hard to pretend that I don't see you or hear your voice. I am so mad of myself for caring about you so much. I am so mad of myself for wanting to talk to you... But whatever... everything is over... I'm going to forget about you eventually...I will not cry again because I have my friends with me... I'm going to smile as usaul because I am strong... I am happy!


Saturday, January 28, 2006

Ha! Two days after I have arrived at Beijing¡K finally¡K I successfully installed DSL onto my laptop! (Yay! Chen, you were right, I should never have doubts about whether or not I should come to Beijing because I am truly ENJOYING my life now!) Haha¡K I really love it here! The whether is okay (I was going to say great¡K but then again¡K its kind of cold at times), my host family is awesome, and we have such an amazing group from Newton! But yea¡K I¡¦m going to start talking about my plane trip here to Beijing¡K haha! So, we first flew to Chicago, and then from Chicago, Beijing. The flight from Boston to Chicago was okay. We didn¡¦t get any good as expected and we basically sat in the very last row of the plane. But, the flight from Chicago to Beijing was kind of interesting. First, I NEVER knew that people hang out in front of the bathroom on the plane! Ha! I thought there were always people in front of the bathroom because they were in line or something. But guess what!? They were only there to socialize and to hang out! That kind of explains why when I was waiting for the bathroom random people would just walk up to me and try to talk to me lol haha¡K awkward right? Okay, and about my life right now, my host family has two houses. One is my host grandparents¡¦ house (my host grandparents are kind of cool and so nice!! It¡¦s kind of funny too because I thought my host grandfather is kind of like my grandpa from my mother¡¦s side! Haha), and the other house is a little far but wicked nice!!! But¡K no matter where we live, I still get to have my own room, a queen size bed, and tons of freedom! Although we have only arrived for three days, I already went shopping twice! (How sweet is that, right? Hehe) The shopping malls here are so incredibly awesome! Everything is so CHEAP!! I don¡¦t know if I want to go back to Newton anymore, haha. But yea¡K what I found out from my trip to Beijing so far is that¡K the stores that sell DVDs and CDs in Chinatown are total rip offs!!! Here¡K the most a DVD can cost is 15 Chinese dollars, which is equivalent to almost 2 US dollars. But in Chinatown, they sell the exactly same DVD for 15 US dollars!! LOL hahaha¡K. I¡¦m going to buy so many DVDs when I get back, hehe =) Oh! And HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! My host family took me to a real nice resturant!!! I ate so much! But yea.. I have to go now¡K I¡¦ll update pictures later!! Ttyl <3

 

Steph <333

 

edit* i got one red envelop!! weeee =D


Sunday, January 22, 2006

Goals For The Next Four Months
1. absolute change
2. have FUN in China!!
3. call chen n henna at least once a week <3 lol
4. remember to update my xanga once in a while  =]
5. stop tdkin about "xxx" ::wink wink:: hehehe lol
6. learn more chinese!?  lol hahaha
7. shoppin <33
8. e-mail ppl from my chinese class LOL (in request of mr. zhu lol)
9. wait to get into college <3
10. stop being so SHY!!!! grrr LOL hahaha (chen... ur making me say "grrr" now lol haha)

edit*
wow... this is the 4th all nighter that i hav pulled this month lol
how exactly do i survive in skul?? o.O lol
but yea... with the amount of time and work i hav left...
i dun tdk i will be sleepin in two days =[[
o well... i'll get all my sleep back when i'm on the plane lol zZZzz... hahaha lol








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