update-foshizzle =P

throwing up medications.
pinch the skin and suck it in.
they say we look better boney.

I can't Believe you're gone
I can't believe I'm here
I never thought that I would stand
That I would stand this tall again

We don't have to touch.
We don't have to speak.
All I want is to lie here with you
and pretend like life is a movie
with a HAPPY ending.

you know the lies they always told you
and the love you never knew
what's the thing they never showed you
that swallow the light from the sun inside your room

and i will sing my song for you until you look me in the face,
press your lips against my own so i know just the way you taste.
and i will sing my song for you until the bombs wipe out the clouds.
i will stand against the ruins and i will scream your name out loud.

sit back New York City,
you're not cute,
but you're oh-so-pretty,
when the rain comes down,
you fall up again.
sunny, you are part of me.
sunny, you are the heart of me

i wanted to see you walking backwards,
to get the sensation of you coming home
i wanted to see you, walking away from me
without the sensation you're leaving me alone.

and you're my good feeling
and you are my reason for breathing

i will be there.
where you are.

you've given up drinking to be with somebody you knew.
and you tried to get into the bible,
but it never got into you.

I'll take the best of your bad moods
and dress them up to make a better you,
'cause all the company calls amount to one paycheck.

Let's cut our losses at both ends
and aim your car away from all our friends,
leaving the dishes stacked in the sink.

and if i could see the world in different colors,
i'd read it in the air as signals send them through.
but everyone is just a different shade of you.

and some days make me
feel weak and shaky
some fly right by me
like a paper airplane
and i hardly notice
that the world's gone crazy
but nothing clearer
than the way you said my name.

i asked you to stay beside me all through the years.
the death of this mess finally came around with no relief this year.
Congratulations you just fucking disappeared.

In just a short amount of time,
I learned that promises are worthless...
That wishing on stars only makes things worse...
&& when you carve things in your skin it only leaves scars...

She is leaning over the ledge.
She sees the cold water just below.
Should she jump and die,
Or should she live another day.
She slips over the edge, making her choice.

When I look at the stars
I feel like myself.

And I've become content with this life that I lead;
where I drink too much and don't believe in much of anything.

Just so you know, you'll never know.

I listen.
But you're out of tune.
YOU'RE SO OUT OF TUNE.

Filling up my empty days with red wine.
Wonder what you think of me;
lying in the grass alone and wasted.
Nothing's how it used to be.

Maybe it was sadness and not sunlight in your eyes.

ever get the feelings the
entire world is flying in
first class & you're stuck
with a folding chair in the
baggage compartment??

If I died, would you notice?
If I killed myself, would you care?
If I put his gun to your head, would you be scared?

When you find me lying there, don't blame yourself.  There is nothing y ou could have done about it.  I wasn't trying to kill myself; I just wanted to sleep forever.  So when you find me lying there, don't wake me up.  It will be my turn to help myself.  I just need to sleep.  When you find me lying there, don't cry and hurt yourself.  Move on without your life as if I was never there.  When you find me lying here.

he put me through pain, and he knows it
that's why he can't look me in the eyes
like he used to

i'm just another one of those girls
who laughs during phone calls
forces herself to fake a smile everyday
& then collapse on her bed
and cries herself to sleep </3

She does not look at their faces as she walks by.
She can feel their cold stares and there disgust.
She is just another ugly ass girl who is hated.
And for what she doesn't exactly know.
She just wants another face, and another life.

When I forgot, You came back, Expecting me to forgive you lik eyou didn't break my heart and bring me to my early death...Oh baby its not going to end like that.  The end will be your blood on the floor.

She screams her lungs out and throws things around.
She falls to the floor and covers her face.
She can hear the voices in her head telling her to die.
She can't take them anymore, she has lived with them too long.
And as she holds the knife to her skin, she feels no regret.

so thats all for now kiddies =]