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Name: Ashley
Birthday: 10/4/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: I love to sing, it helps me express and let out my emtions. I have a passion for music, and am crazy about cats - any of my friends can tell you that! I love art, and horror movies - as for the sappy stuff... meh, I guess once in a while isn't bad (shhh...don't tell anyone) [laughs].
Expertise: I would not know, friends would have to tell you. Well, I love math! (Don't kill me cause of it! Yikes!!!)
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
11/24/2004
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| So things with my friends and their situation is a little bit better I
guess. Don't really know what's going to happen next with parents
and all. People do grow up and change, but that doesn't mean it's
alright to change for other people or because of other people.
You can't depend on other people or else it will ruin your relationship
with your friends and family and you will basically lose everyone
because you are not making any time or caring for anyone else but ur
dependant. Yeah, probably don't know what I'm talking about, I'm
just saying stuff. Although I just recently just found out
another one of my friends is getting kicked out of their house.
This is the third friend in a row, what is happening to my
friends? Why are they rebelling is such ways, why are they being
irresponsible and such. It's horrible, this is exactly why I
don't really like a lot of the people that go to my school. Their
lives are screwed up because they are too immature and can't deal with
situations in a sensible manner and I can't be caught up in their
problems. I just want to be there for my friends but at the same
time it's hard because the past week has been an eye opener. I'm
glad I am who I am, I'm seriously going to try to make my relationship
with my mom better - although I have come a long way even now. At
the same time, she still isn't fair to me. It's the summer , I'm
a teenager that just wants to go out when she wants since she doesn't
have to worry about school for another month and she's taking that away
from me. Telling me that I have way too much time on my hands and
that I should get a job. Although it would be nice to have a job,
this is my last year to have some teenager freedom before I hit
graduation and ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO get a job. So I want to enjoy
the time I have left before I have to officially grow up. Man,
the things I have to deal with everyday..oh well. That's life.
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| I'm back with more complaints. Man, what's happening to the
world. All my friends lives' are being completely screwed over
and there's nothing I can do about it. Their situations I never
thought they would have to deal with. But I guess it could be
worse - oh wait, it's on the verge of getting that worse. I can't
believe it, just one thing after another, one friend after
another. Will there ever be peace again in our lives?
Teenagers shouldn't have to deal with such matters, parents think
they're doing the right thing when they are going about it all wrong
and in the end are making the situation more worse than it already
is. What sucks is life is supposed to throw more stuff like this
and worse at teenagers as we get older. How do we deal with it, I
guess by going through it ourselves and if we never do experience it...
well, some would say lucky - others would just hold against you.
Man, life is complicated. People that control us suck to, it's
like they can't even help the people that need to be helped
either. Call this number, call that - it's like, "Okay, I've
called all the numbers on this page now how am I going to get
help." Help lines, just keep connecting you to other help lines
and in the end - it takes like four days to get help. What if it
was too late by then? Depending on others sucks harsh. But
anyways - enough from me. Hope you survive the world people
!! All we got is each other.
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| I don't know whether so much has happened or if nothing has. My
relationship with my mom has took an uprising and is pretty okay,
mostly because I'm calling out to her to get my old relationship with
her back. I hate the way things are with us, always fighting -
about Brett, friends, just everything and anything we can think
of. The slightest thing she does ticks me off because I only know
the truth about her and how she is a dramaqueen. She lives for
fights, for the sheer chance that she can have some kind of
attention. But I hate hating her, I dont' want to be like many
teenagers I know and rebel against her, I know that fact is inevitable
and it will happen - just in time of course. I just want to
deteriorate away from this as much as possible. Delay this
durastic change in my life until it is at least a week before I move
away from here.
Other things on my mind... Bama had a heart attack, she's not my
grandma but since I don't really have a grandma anymore - from the
times I have met her, I am definitely close to loving her like
one...especially since laura and brett are like a second family to me,
so is their grandma. Brett was pretty upset by it... really
upset. It was so sad, my poor guy. He loves his Bama so
much, he went to go visit her this weekend, something that was way
overdue - only because he didn't want to face (once again) the
inevitable fact of her slowly drifting away from his life. All
that is important is the time you spent with your loved one.
What we all need to realise is... All that is important in the end
before we die, is how we lived everyday. I could die tomorrow,
you could die the next day... no one knows. The chances of it are
slim but I mean just like the London terrorist attack. Those
individuals who did die, probably didn't even know they had it coming
to them. And just like that, they're gone - this is effecting so
many people. It's sad, so we got to live everyday like it is our
last. Take chances, take risks... I'm still trying to overcome my
morals to be able to do this. Brett's betted that it will happen
in at least six months. I guess we'll see about that now wont we?!
"Live everyday for what it is... An opportunity." ~Ashley K
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| Wow, the last time I updates was March! Crazy stuff... I
can't believe I'm graduating next year, crazy stuff yes it is. It
hit me only a week ago... I just don't know what to think of it except
for the whole getting a job to pay for it all. Don't want parents
to have to be stressed about keeping up the pace of another
graduation. My brother just graduated and wow, it was so worth
going to his comencment. My friend was like, I wouldn't go to my
brother's comencement, it would be too boring. But it was worth
it, I almost cried for some reason unknown and phenomally
unexplained. I'm so proud of him, he's done high school, he's
moving on into the world and starting to get his priorities straight
and I'm excited for him. As annoying as he is sometimes, he's
awesome in the end. Besides, in the end, if you don't have your
parents you have ur siblings to be there for you. Wow, enough
talk about my brother.
Life definitely moves on, my friend moved away. My closest friend
anyway, now I'm gonna have to relocate myself, go into my old habits of
being a little more independant. I'm doing pretty good, I mean, I
do have other friends to hang with ( a lot of other friends) but I
don't really hang with them all that much after school. Now that
school is no more, I just guess I'm gonna have to deal with it and get
out more with them. I did today, went job hunting with my other
best friend Laura. It was quite fun, we went to Tim Hortons where
we went halfers on a triple chocolate cheese cake, walnut nanaimo bar,
and had two coffees. All of which weren't so nice to my tummy, I
am currently having stomach problems. Not too long ago I found
out I had ulcers and man was I pissed. I hate tummy aches
(whines!!) I guess it's getting a little better. And to top
it all, apparently there's something else wrong with me, the results
haven't come in yet. I hate some x-ray experiences ( I don't
really want to get into it, let's just say - it was very uncomfortable
). Anyways, happier topic. I think I might actually get
hired this time. I"ll be happy if I do, money is always
good. Can help out the parents, save my own money to move out and
stuff, treat myself here and there. Wont have to depend on my
parents to get gifts for my friends birthdays and stuff. Just a
little bit of independence will do me good. I've written a lot so
maybe I should stop. Haha, I doubt anyone is gonna read this long
thing. But if ya do, let me know..haha.
Love ya all!!
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| Hello, haven't written in my log in such a long time. It's spring
break and I'm lovin it, haha. Spent the night at Brett's for two
days, man it was fun. It almost felt like I was living on my own
with my hunie and it was awesome. So, there's a guy from Nelson
in Surrey and he's livin with his girlfriend - my best friend, I
actually think it's awesome. We all hang out and it's a blast,
well it will be a total blast. Oh the memories that we all will
create. I went driving, it was fun, I can't wait to drive
again. Talkin to Nat and she's tellin me how she and Max saw an
owl, those lucky butts. I'm so jealous, haha... not really.
Anyways, I shall write to ya later.
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