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Wow the other night was crazy I started hanging out with Niggers friends cuz i figured there would hardly be drama well fuck that things just exploded so fuck that shit. But anyways I had a crappy day but after I got off work I went over to Kara's house and we just hung out and talked it was great the best part of my day shit my last couple of weeks. She left for D.C. this morning with her mom I can't wait till she gets back either Sunday or Monday after noon. And Tues is her 20th birthday and I'm going to take her out to MUCH and then to HEAVEN that is upstairs it's going to be great then Fri. im going to take her to the Comedy Zone. fun times

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I said "Goodbye" today. I guess it's a good thing. I hate that I had ever met her not b/c whatever this is now but b/c the way she makes me feel still to this day she has my heart. but I guess thing happen for a reason. It has tought me that girls are not worth losing your best friend I wish I had realized that sooner but now nothing can be fixed. If I could take it back I would, no dont get me wrong I live my life free of regret but there are things i would have done differently. The biggest thing I would have never told her I love her. My heart has been ripped to pieces but one day it will be better, I hope. I just want to make thing right with him, I dont want to be his friend I cant not b/c of her but b/c of me. I hate all of this has happen but I can only blame myself. You live and you learn, no one said life was going to be easy.
Damn I love me some chicken! I haven't ate in like three days and today I bought an eight piece chicken meal with two large sides OMFG it was heaven the best damn meal I have ever had.

I've done it again. I fucked everything up I'm not real sure how I was asleep when it happen. I've lost every thing I wanted, everything I needed. I tried to drown the pain when I awoke it just hurt that much more. I'm torn up inside i'm falling to peices. My head is spinning trying to figure out what happen. Right now I dunno if I should me mad,upset , or what I'm so confused I wish I could just talk to her. Even if it's words I dont want to hear I have to know I have to hear her say them. I want to escape this pain I have to escape this place. I have to run even though I know no place is far enough away. Call me , text me, IM me do something I need to hear from you.

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There's not much about me, im a unique individual. I've been through everything u could imagine. Before u think of something i've probably have already done it. Life has givin me more downs then up. I use to be heavy into drugs everything out there i was doing but i realized all i was doing was using them to hide from reality. I was in the Air Force for awhile before being seperated for reasons only know by me, some times i wish i could go back.