Currently Listening Curtain Call By Eminem puke see related

when you love someone there's nothing you can do
you can't control your heart, it controls you...<3        

life kinda sucks right now .. im just tired of p l waliking all over me .. && if they really loved me they woudn't do it .. but u kno if they want to do that then fine .. cuz im not always gonna be here waiting for them.. so make ur choice..

im tired of everyone telling me what they think about my life.. i dnt care .. i didn't ask u.. && really .. ur opinion has NO dent in my life choices..

my christmas was pretty much the worst ever.. i like most of the stuff that i got but that really isn't what i care about .. im upset .. at a lot of ppl.. && they just dont get it ...

i like surprises.. i want more surprises.. to liven my life.. b/c i want to be happy..thats it

bye.. dont talk to me .. unless u plan to surprise me..

Currently Listening Where I Wanna Be By Donell Jones where i wanna be see related

well.. everything is better in my life. a lil..

its up && down i guess.. but today has been ok .. i wrapped all my presents && did my laundry.. so i got some things out of the way ...william might come over later.. not sure..

but yesterday he went to my lil brothers holiday program with me && i was glad he did .. i didn't think he would cuz it was at like 9 and he had to get upp early.. then we came bk here and we ate && slept.. then later he brought his bro over for couple of hours to play with my lil bro's .. he took him home && came bk .. then he asked mee to dance with him .. and it was really sweet ..highlight of my night!

 Cant wait till Christmas~ 3 days!yes! then new years eve but not lookin foward to that cuz i cant do anything!

but i have to go && finish my laundry.. night.

Currently Listening 25 Thunderous Classics so emotional see related

just when things were lookin up.. he messed it up...

&& now EVERYONE  is lying to me.. its like pl ask me too trust them && then they all lie to me...

hmmm...

well im a lil upset cuz its like a lot of ppl feel to comfortable with things that are mine and they dont seem to mind that they are moving in on it .. && frankly its really making me mad.. k.. so if ur my friend dont get in the middle of my relationship.. thanks~ && try being MY friend .. i hink that they are really my friend && that they really love me but seriously .. talk to me NOT my boi.. i really feel like i cant do anything bout it too cuz im at home and grounded ..

also theres someone that has gained something && b/c of it i kinda think im gonna lose them a lil and as much as they say i wont i lready have  lil... i hope they realize it ..

tonight i was at the hospital to see my grandma..&& i realized how much my grandpa really loves her i mean .. he has completely devoted himself to her && only her .. he is there for her everytime she had to get up to go to the batroom or when she needed a drink or food or a nurse .. i cant wait to have someone who is TRUELY that devoted to me && only me .. b/c i want to be that devoted to someone else ..

i uno .. im ust really upset right now && its like there is no one for me to talk to aout it .. i just want to feel better && be able to talk about it ...

Currently Listening Merry Christmas By Mariah Carey all i want for christmas see related

yo... so imm soooooo excited!! 10 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS!!! && i really want all my gifts!!

so im also REALLY MAD! i found out today that my randparents wanted to buy me a car a few weeks ago and my mom told them no b/c of everything im grounded for .. how can she do that it was the kind of car i wanted and everything .. 2001 corolla... && im soo upset.. i mean couuldn't she let them get it for me && then tell me i couldn't drive it for like 6 monthes or something .. i mean anything .. i wanted a car .. && now im NEVER going to get one its not fair..

\ugh.. so my laundry is goin supperrr slow tonight...

BREAK STARTS TOMORROW~whooohooooooooo

night all