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Name: Emily
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Birthday: 2/1/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Singing, Dancing, Readin romantic novels, Shopping (shoes and pocketbooks kill my checking account), and more :)
Expertise: I am pretty good at Chick-fil-A stuff duh! then other than that i can be as good as you want me to be, hahaha
Message: message me
AIM:  ooolala4920
Member Since:
3/12/2004
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| i dont know what to do... i have feelings beyond belief for him but i dont think he knows, but does (if that makes sense) i mean how can you kiss me before i leave after an intimate night, then kiss me another night time and time again and to tell me to call when i get into town saturday and feel nothing... i have always been one to over analyize everything and i mean EVERYTHING... i guess that can be a problem but i cant help it... it's a falw i have that i am trying to fix but it isnt as easy as it seems.. i just so confused and wanting to know answers but once again i am afraid to ask them. maybe it is because all my life i have been rejected and i would rather not know and get a broken heart if that is the case, but if i am rejected it would be better to get it done and over with but idk... i hate this part of life... | | |
| i dont really understand things.. i mean, when i had it, i was uninterested, but now that i cant have him back, i want him more than ever. i really cared for him. the first guy i can say that i did. it hurts to know that i fucked up and that he doesnt want to be with me, but it wasnt all my fault and i think that he had a part in us fallin apart too.. i just know that i miss him more everyday. why is it? i dont want to miss him. i know it is lame to feel that way about someone that you only dated a month, but when you give your all to that person (mind, body, and spirit) it hurts and yerns for that attention again. the more that i got to know him the more i felt something for him. i was scared and hesitant for more than one reason, that is forsure... i was worried about a certain people, but when i realized that those people/person A) didnt matter and B) had already moved on and couldnt care less... then it was too late to give my all to him. and that is what is really sad. i have learn alot, but you know it just sucks knowing that the person you want doesnt want you back, i hate that feeling, or atleast that is the feeling i have about him feeling about me. i just miss him and i wished that he missed me that way, but i dont think that he does nor even cares.. me and relationships just suck.. i can never do anything fucking right and i am tired of it... i give up on it all.. | | |
| how do much do i love my girls? they are the apples in my eyes and i just want to thank them for everything that they have put up with this year... goodness i would have been lost without them.. they are my family here... they mean the world, i dont know what i would do with out the two of you... ya'll are my angles that God has sent me... i love you two so much it isnt even funny!!! haha... well that is my shout out to those that care and put up with me and who just love me for me, even with all my faults, they accept me and that is the best feeling in the world... other than my girls here in the milly, my life is good.. glad to be moving and getting out of here and i am excited about a new year in a new place... fresh.. that's what i am talkin about.. haha... but gotta get back to the boxes and boxes that are sitting here waiting to be packed... hahaha... ~ sue | | |
| wow... it has been a while... well anyways, i was heard this song and i just relate to it... maybe not exactly but sometimes i feel like how she does in the song..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
* Taylor Swift, Teardrops on my guitar
anyways, i know some of yall out there can relate as well but anyways just kind let music write the entry for me today
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| - SANTA BABY!!!merry christmas everyone! idk if people still read these or what not, but i just wanted to say merry christmas and that i love each and everyone of you!!! :) well have a wonderful day of laughter and cheer.... may santa and the rest of the fam be good to you!!!
lots of love,
sue 
*gosh it has been so long since some has called me that... it was good to hear it k-willy... even though i had gotten sick of it by the time we graduated high school, but it was still good.. haha* 
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