I heard the baby's heart beat...

I have been so tired lately and it drives me nuts..I know it drives Tim nuts too. I can not keep myself under control when I am tired and I lose myself in the process...It will get better...I just have to remember that I can not run around like I used to. I am pregnant and my body is working so hard right now to make this little one that grows inside me.

Tim and I heard the baby's heart beat the day before yesterday. I am now 10 and a half weeks and I am due December 17th, 2006. The doctor says I may not be as tired in a few more weeks, I can only hope as every body is different.

I know it has been a while since I wrote but I have been so tired and have not really known what to say as Tim and I used to use this as a form of communication and now we really don't and not many write back, so I do write this mostly for Tim...Ash writes sometimes but she is really busy too...well I love you Tim and I know everything will be ok...Stay real....Angela

I'm having a baby

Hey everyone, I am getting all my medical things out of the way. My hormones are back to normal for the most part but they had me come off of my meds for the test so I hope that it is not my meds that are messing things up.

I went to see my father yesterday and it was ok, I love when I see him and I got to hug him for the first time in over a year. I love him so much and he says he could get out in as little time as 5 years. I hope so but only for selfish reasons, so that  he will be here for me, but he also has prostate cancer and they are going to check how far along it is in two weeks. I hope that he is ok. I miss my father so much. On the other hand he should be punished for the crimes he committed. I am glad that my father is my father and I would never change him, I just wish he could have made better choices in life.

I have been thinking about my brother a lot lately too....I have not heard from him for a little while but I hope that all is well, I know that he is making unhealthy choices and it hurts but I know that there is nothing that I can do about it. He is a grown man and is Prison for making poor choices and should be punished but not to the extent that they have given him, I feel that he is losing faith and has not seen me in over a year. I make a big difference in his life and that alone means a lot to me.

I would love to keep on writting as I have a lot of feelings that come out so easy on this page but my hands are cramping so I will write again soon....Stay Real....Angela