mitral valve prolapse

Mitral valve prolapse (MVP) is a common heart disorder.

It occurs when the valve between your heart's left upper chamber (left atrium) and the left lower chamber (left ventricle) doesn't close properly. When the left ventricle contracts, the valve's leaflets bulge (prolapse) upward or back into the atrium. Mitral valve prolapse sometimes leads to blood leaking backward into the left atrium, a condition called mitral valve regurgitation

at least it is common...

i ve missed 2 days of work now.  not really serious, but just need to do some routine checks...so right now i am at home, in front of the tv, feeling rather gloomy (because of the weather), with WIRES sticking out of my front torso connected to this "tape recorder" in a pouch...(might be quite good for my ipod!)...

how did this happen?  well...basically started on one not-so-fine night...i was short of breath.  felt dizzy and my toes and hands were numb...because of it..so went to the 24 hr doc in tmn tun...but he was quite a dumb ass doctor...making stupid irrelevant jokes.  and not only that he diagnosed me wrongly. said it was gas. and even put me on the "nebuliser" (sounds like some space age thing)...which is actually used for asthma or phlegm.  *sigh*...hopeless..

the next morning, thought i felt better.  got up and dressed in my new black top feeling all optimistic and ready for work.  as i was driving...it started again!  :(..had to rush home to another doc...

then, went to the hospital to see a physician (took ages).  said that it was common...bla bla bla...just do some tests to confirm. 

voila! here i am! with wires sticking out of me. 

so far...so good...i so want to "excel" in this test...

insyallah..

,su

i think...

syawal menjelma

selamat hari raya to all the muslims...

this raya, has been quite quiet so far...initial feelings of elation and excitement has almost died down in me. 

i have to say, raya-ing here and raya-ing in london is very different.  mainly because, people over here tend to take it for granted.  the festivities are..almost lame!

i remember those days raya-ing with my brothers and friends.  everyone there were in the same boat.  raya-ing without their family.  for that day, and that day only...we were all family.

my brothers and i would wake up early.  they will takbir while getting ready, which is honestly quite a funny sight.  then, we would call for a cab and made our way to Malaysia Hall.  All decked in our fine baju melayus and kurungs, we would perform our Solat Raya.

Thereafter, we will convene outside the hall and meet up with all our friends.  those that we haven't seen for a long time, those that are deaerest to us, those that we do not want to meet at all (but its london..so we deal with it)...followed by having a FEAST of rendangs and kuah kacangs and ketupats...:)...and usually in the freezing cold....haha...nice...

after filling ourselves with the cholestrol and fat laden food, we will make our way home for a breather.  we would go home...and put on our raya tracks and ate some more (we usually prepare kuah kacang, if we have time)...

then, i will meet up with rahida and gang.  my other family.  and from then on, until we decide not to...there will be endless laughter and jokes.  we even karaoked once.  to raya songs.  sung by sharifah aini.  something about being overseas and malay songs.  they suddenly sound alright to you.  u learn to appreciate them.  enough of those..coldplay, britpop and what not.  bring on the good ol lagu melayu...

i know that maybe this raya is different, because of certain circumstances...fought with him, friends all balik kampung, family all over the world, not enough babies/small kids in my immediate family (dammit, i hope someone from my family gets married soon and have more children!!!....maybe that would be me...erk)...thats what we need.  additions to my family.  we are too small a family.

oh well, enough reminiscing...again, selamat hari raya to all of you.  kalau ade open house tu, jgn la malu2 nak ajak...  heeheheehe...

,su

10 months and 1 day

As i sat there cutting my hair, I felt a mixture of excitement and apprehension.  a part of me can't believe that we have reached the 10-month mark.  It has been a long time since I have been in a relationship that is quite long.

i know some of you may scoff at me, "10 months?! Big deal!"...well, its a big deal to me......every man has his own mountain...

*rewind*...

why apprehension you say?

well, what if its all too good to be true.  we went through a rough patch a while back.  have we really climbed out of the black hole?

memories of that period still haunts me.  the indifference.  the coldness. 

*fast forward*...

but now we are smiling again.  we are laughing again.  we are joking again.  its just that little devil in my head.

(go away...)

,su

gadis jalan burmah

it was a hot, hot day. wearing a double-layered top was not the most brilliant idea.

where is the parking?????
theres dewan bahasa dan pustaka (dbp), with the open book monument at the top. wahey, 'P'! that must be the parking.

this is a might stinky lift. and it doesn't even go up to ground. Only then did we realise that...this is not where the play would be. back into the car.

vrooommmmm...vrooooommm...

in front of menara mamamamama (ok, i can't remember what its called...!)

nice, little studio.
the set up was of a kitchen and living room.
a woman, with a loosely tied bun and raggedy bath robe was busying around the kitchen.
looks like she was attempting to make cake batter.

she is...'gadis jalan burmah'...

it was a monologue. a brilliant one i might add! she is 'Tini'. a 42 yr old woman. unmarried. grumpy. and on the brink of depression on her birthday.

she brought us on her journey back into the past. describing all her adventures with the oppositie sex. from her first-love-mamak-boy-who-speaks-funny, her chinese boyfriend who was only interested in having sex with her, her mat salleh american expat big shot who died in a car accident, an anak dato' who loves to dangdut and wears leopart print shirts with gold chains!

and she impersonated all of them so well, with the different voices and accents.

the best part? the 'hindustan' dance.

do check them out as they are showing all week next week until sunday.