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mitral valve prolapse

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 04:04:55 GMT

Mitral valve prolapse (MVP) is a common heart disorder.

It occurs when the valve between your heart's left upper chamber (left atrium) and the left lower chamber (left ventricle) doesn't close properly. When the left ventricle contracts, the valve's leaflets bulge (prolapse) upward or back into the atrium. Mitral valve prolapse sometimes leads to blood leaking backward into the left atrium, a condition called mitral valve regurgitation

at least it is common...

i ve missed 2 days of work now. not really serious, but just need to do some routine checks...so right now i am at home, in front of the tv, feeling rather gloomy (because of the weather), with WIRES sticking out of my front torso connected to this "tape recorder" in a pouch...(might be quite good for my ipod!)...

how did this happen? well...basically started on one not-so-fine night...i was short of breath. felt dizzy and my toes and hands were numb...because of it..so went to the 24 hr doc in tmn tun...but he was quite a dumb ass doctor...making stupid irrelevant jokes. and not only that he diagnosed me wrongly. said it was gas. and even put me on the "nebuliser" (sounds like some space age thing)...which is actually used for asthma or phlegm. *sigh*...hopeless..

the next morning, thought i felt better. got up and dressed in my new black top feeling all optimistic and ready for work. as i was driving...it started again! :(..had to rush home to another doc...

then, went to the hospital to see a physician (took ages). said that it was common...bla bla bla...just do some tests to confirm.

voila! here i am! with wires sticking out of me.

so far...so good...i so want to "excel" in this test...

insyallah..

,su

i think...

Fri, 12 Jan 2007 03:05:03 GMT

i will just give up...

syawal menjelma

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 00:28:59 GMT

selamat hari raya to all the muslims...

this raya, has been quite quiet so far...initial feelings of elation and excitement has almost died down in me.

i have to say, raya-ing here and raya-ing in london is very different. mainly because, people over here tend to take it for granted. the festivities are..almost lame!

i remember those days raya-ing with my brothers and friends. everyone there were in the same boat. raya-ing without their family. for that day, and that day only...we were all family.

my brothers and i would wake up early. they will takbir while getting ready, which is honestly quite a funny sight. then, we would call for a cab and made our way to Malaysia Hall. All decked in our fine baju melayus and kurungs, we would perform our Solat Raya.

Thereafter, we will convene outside the hall and meet up with all our friends. those that we haven't seen for a long time, those that are deaerest to us, those that we do not want to meet at all (but its london..so we deal with it)...followed by having a FEAST of rendangs and kuah kacangs and ketupats...:)...and usually in the freezing cold....haha...nice...

after filling ourselves with the cholestrol and fat laden food, we will make our way home for a breather. we would go home...and put on our raya tracks and ate some more (we usually prepare kuah kacang, if we have time)...

then, i will meet up with rahida and gang. my other family. and from then on, until we decide not to...there will be endless laughter and jokes. we even karaoked once. to raya songs. sung by sharifah aini. something about being overseas and malay songs. they suddenly sound alright to you. u learn to appreciate them. enough of those..coldplay, britpop and what not. bring on the good ol lagu melayu...

i know that maybe this raya is different, because of certain circumstances...fought with him, friends all balik kampung, family all over the world, not enough babies/small kids in my immediate family (dammit, i hope someone from my family gets married soon and have more children!!!....maybe that would be me...erk)...thats what we need. additions to my family. we are too small a family.

oh well, enough reminiscing...again, selamat hari raya to all of you. kalau ade open house tu, jgn la malu2 nak ajak... heeheheehe...

,su

10 months and 1 day

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 09:39:06 GMT

As i sat there cutting my hair, I felt a mixture of excitement and apprehension. a part of me can't believe that we have reached the 10-month mark. It has been a long time since I have been in a relationship that is quite long.

i know some of you may scoff at me, "10 months?! Big deal!"...well, its a big deal to me......every man has his own mountain...

*rewind*...

why apprehension you say?

well, what if its all too good to be true. we went through a rough patch a while back. have we really climbed out of the black hole?

memories of that period still haunts me. the indifference. the coldness.

*fast forward*...

but now we are smiling again. we are laughing again. we are joking again. its just that little devil in my head.

(go away...)

,su

gadis jalan burmah

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 10:47:00 GMT

it was a hot, hot day. wearing a double-layered top was not the most brilliant idea.

where is the parking?????
theres dewan bahasa dan pustaka (dbp), with the open book monument at the top. wahey, 'P'! that must be the parking.

this is a might stinky lift. and it doesn't even go up to ground. Only then did we realise that...this is not where the play would be. back into the car.

vrooommmmm...vrooooommm...

in front of menara mamamamama (ok, i can't remember what its called...!)

nice, little studio.
the set up was of a kitchen and living room.
a woman, with a loosely tied bun and raggedy bath robe was busying around the kitchen.
looks like she was attempting to make cake batter.

she is...'gadis jalan burmah'...

it was a monologue. a brilliant one i might add! she is 'Tini'. a 42 yr old woman. unmarried. grumpy. and on the brink of depression on her birthday.

she brought us on her journey back into the past. describing all her adventures with the oppositie sex. from her first-love-mamak-boy-who-speaks-funny, her chinese boyfriend who was only interested in having sex with her, her mat salleh american expat big shot who died in a car accident, an anak dato' who loves to dangdut and wears leopart print shirts with gold chains!

and she impersonated all of them so well, with the different voices and accents.

the best part? the 'hindustan' dance.

do check them out as they are showing all week next week until sunday.

humans

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 03:48:21 GMT

referring to the previous entry, i would like to retract it and rephrase it...

MOST men are SCUMS...

i had an interesting experience last sunday. my family and i visited the Islamic Arts Museum Malaysia. They had an exhibition on 'Al-Qur'an: The sacred art of revelation'. Admittedly, I was a bit reluctant to go:

1. boring

2. i really wanted to go home and sleep

However, I was up for a pleasant surprise because it was a very interesting experience. When we arrived at the place at about 11am, the place was deserted. EMPTY! where are the droves of people that we saw at the 'Hantu exhibition' at Shah Alam? The queue then was so long that we gave up waiting!

As we entered, I was in awe at how grand the place looked. It even looked better than our National Musuem. As we paid for our tickets, we were given some pamphlets to explain the exhibition and also as a guide to go around the musuem.

As we exited the lift on theGround Floor, I was enthralled by the bright hall that awaited us. Everything was white and there were windows all round. On my right was a glassed door to the fountains, which in the morning sun looked pretty remarkable. The floors were a sparkling white marble, the white pillars majestically strong. And when you look up, there was a beautiful inverted dome, with intricate designs. This wasn't even the exhibition!

As we entered the exhibition, it was quiet...with a faint sound of Quran reading. It was a 'guided' exhibition, where there were panels with info (in English and Malay) on the walls and exhibits related to the information. I started reading the first panel.

The history of the Qur'an. How did it come about? Right from the angel, Jibrail (or Gabriel) passing the messages to Prophet Muhammad SAW right to the collection of all the surahs by the Caliph. From there, it explained the significance of the art designs on the cover, the opening pages, middle pages and the closing pages. There were different designs from the different regions of the world. It was so intricate. Even the writing differed between regions.

From then, on it proceeded to the significance of the Qur'an.

My favourite, was when they had this HUGE cubic model. a 10 by 10 cube, which fits all the arabic letters perfectly along the edges and also numbers from 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,20,30,40 right up to 1000. It went on to explain the relation on this cube to the 99 names of Allah. And went even further to explain the diagonal lines in the cube which explained something about the theory of multiplication (or something like that!). It was an interesting revelation. I love maths.

There was also an exhibition of mini Qur'ans. There were some that was so tiny that you needed magnifying glasses to read it! And when you look through it, you will be amazed at how detailed and fine the writing was.

Nearing the end of the exhibition was a huge frame on a wall. It was the WHOLE Qur'an, all 30 Juzuks on ONE piece of cloth. Again, the writing was so fine and detailed. I was so impressed. Amazingly enough, it was quite easy to read. Do you think reading this ONE pager wiill be easier to finish, rather than a book? I think it would be, cause psychologically you are thinking that you just need to read ONE page. Hehe...

At the end of the exhibition were descriptions of all the Tokoh Islam. And you will be amazed that actually Muslims were the pioneers for a lot of things. Surgical instruments, oriental music, flying!(Not the WRIGHT brothers!), the windmill, travelling and many more. Their work is published in books in Europe! The reason why nobody knows that these are all done by Muslims, is because the Europeans translates their work into Latin and publish it with their Latin name. Therefore, it loses the Islamic element. Sad. But true.

Anyway, I encourage all of you to explore this exhibition. To Muslims AND Non-Muslims. To my surprise, I noticed that the majority of the patrons were foreigners!(American, English, German and Japanese!). If THEY would pay to see the exhibition. If YOU would pay to see some ghosts trapped in a bottle. Why not this?

, su

all men are scum

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 23:34:42 GMT

agree?

month-a-versary!

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 03:34:53 GMT

it's that time of the month again. no! not that!

its been 9 months since the day we got together. its been 9 months of laughter and tears. of hugs and bashing (mostly by me...ok...all by me)...its been a journey. wahey! u beat the record, sayang! not the big one! but a huge milestone, nevertheless.

anyhow, happy 9 months!

i love u...

boys and girls...friends?

Sat, 02 Sep 2006 11:23:26 GMT

i know that when i begin to write this entry, some will throw tomatoes at me, some will silently agree with me, and some will bang their fists out of pure relation to the issue...

are boys and girls made to be friends? i mean, ya...there are friends who goes hey, wassup? and there are some who occasionally meet for lunch/coffee/drinks...whatever...and there are friends who calls each other EVERY SINGLE day...talk about EVERYTHING underthe sun, without any reservations...who sometimes, when they walk together, passerbys will think,"what a nice, handsome couple"...

i have no reservations about boys and girls being friends. however, i DO have an issue with those IN a relationship and still having close relationships with the opposite sex. call me conservative, but i m not saying that you should throw away all the friendships that you had previously. But no longer CAN u be as close as before. its just wrong. and unfair to the other person that you have so kindly and if you can remember, excitedly, added into your life. there HAS to be limits.

ya, fine. some of u may be saying, "what's your problem? my bf/gf doesn't care i am friends with them!" of course they tell u that they don't care. its part of living in this new age of time, where everyone must be carefree...like sex. they are just trying to fit in. they are trying to make themself believe that it doesn't matter anymore. Because, if they were to protest then ppl will think that they are a prude/geek/kodi/from the yesteryears/etc. There is nothin pure about a wonderful loving relationship. "oops, i accidentally slipped and fell onto her...on the bed...naked..."..." oh that is ok hunny, i understand. it happens"...whatever.

if you have so many friends of the opposite sex, then how does that make your gf/bf different? he's special? she's the one and only (bullshit!)

i believe that, any boy and girl..who may start out without any intention of being together (or does!)...and spends a lot of time together, HAS a higher chance of falling in love (or grow to love) compared to 2 strangers exchanging charged hormones just by looking each other over a book in a cafe (read: love at first sight)...

just think about it. how did you get together with your gf/bf/wife/husband?

happy merdeka...

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 01:04:23 GMT

merdeka! merdeka! merdeka!

this merdeka is pretty quiet and mundane for me...ayah is out playing golf, mama is doin her thing, amir is waving some flag to the jalur gemilang song at sri pentas...and i m still in my pjs with my laptop (on my lap!) in front of the tv. not really watching. its some 70's show. and for some odd reason, theres not sound. oh wait, there it is...

sayang is out of the hospital...*phew*...after all the drama, he is fine...alhamdulillah. took half day off yesterday to spend time with him...his friends came over in droves...hehehe.....funny lot they are....then, his mama came...and well just sat down and chatted with her. left at about 645 to go home and pray...

i miss him.

later today, going out for lunch with the ladies!!!!!

finally. our deal to meet up at least once a month has been broken. its crazy! maybe its my fault more than anything, seeing as i am the onli one living outside of puchong/cberjaya. why are u guys so damn faaar!!!???

oh well...never mind...at least we are meeting up today......

on a different note, i am in marketing now. Hotlink marketing to be exact. the team is full of girls! its quite nice there. its DIFFERENT to p.i.t. which is good in some ways...i then, i didn't have any responsibilities (or minimal), now i have 100% responsibilities. its daunting. challenging. scary. but exciting.

ok la, i really should mandi now. maybe drop in to see the 'orang sakit' today.

,su