i always get excited around these last days of school. it is such a great feeling to know that in a week or so you will be free to do whatever your heart desires. i wish i had enough money to buy a big boat and be able to sail.
too bad that won't ever happen. :]
this year i have really changed. although i am still mad about how messed up things got with people i cared for. but i have let go of some of my exsisting problems with friends. and now i am more aware of myself and boundries.

now, i dont trust anyone off the bat. i will respect you but i cant trust you unless you prove yourself. until then, im on guard. and if you have a problem with me worrying about myself before you and i's friendship, then we can talk some other time when you accept that.
also, no second chances. its not that hard to be a decent friend. i shouldn't have to forgive someone time after time hoping that they will change when they aren't really that worthy of a person. i wont allow myself to be the doormat. if people feel the need to wipe their feet on my face, then they just won't come through my door.

this weekend was pretty fun.