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i love amanda

Now I've seen the times they've changed, Leaving us it seems so strange, I am hoping I can find, where to leave my hurt behind, all the shit I seem to take, all alone I seem to break, I've lived this life the best I can, does this make me not a man?

Alchohol. why? this, this substance drives people to beat, kill, just plain hate . Yet at this point that and pot are the only answer. I'm stuck in a hole that I can't get out of. love is a tornadao making me cry and cry. It isn't supposed to be a good thing? It is but the one I love isn't there. no one is ever there ever since I was born. My mom was never there to hold me and love me.

FUCK! I sound like a fuckin little pity story. I'm sorry but I need to let it out some how. Well I love you(and you know  who you are) and I'll be waitning for you till it's my time. but I don't know if I can wait forever. No actually I can.I love you.

Wayne Allen South's sunrise-august 25 1990...sunset-? comeing up soon

      Well I just wanted to say that friendship is alot like pissing in your pants. everybody can see it but only you can feel it's true warmth. So I just wanted to say thanks Derrike, Cody, David, Nate, the other Nate, Fellin, Ian, Kellum, Mickey, Max, Dan, Pat, Tori, Lissy Matt, Greg, Chase, Val, Katie, Amanda Michatavage, Kala, Michelle,Bethany, Erin Amanda Moreadeth,(if that is how you spell your last name), Alicia, Kate, Julie, Amber, Jak, Hilary, Jess, Miranda, Hilary, Brooke, Diana, Erica, Michelle, and everbody else that I can't remember cause your a loser... for being the piss in my pants!!!lol

Arggggh! hhuhhhh... love is not getting any easier!