You know whats funny.. im sitting here trying to figure out if what im doing is right, but right and wrong is a point of view. my views right now is trying to do the best i can and work hard. i dont even have much time to see my gf or friends anymore, i try to see my dad when i have time and i know he is proud and im really trying hard to to lose my mind becauase this job is easy but i have to sacifice time with the money and the money is to survive because i dont want ot be here anymore i want my own place i want my car i want to move away i want to go to japan i want i want i need i need and its sad but thats the way life is everyone chose there paths and hopefully they can enjoy time later because they furfilled a goal! well you know something all these YEARS and now i got a goal!  and i can feel the goal getting closer and closer as the days passes by  and im not going to  screw it up and  to be honest i dont want to screw up no more and i dont care how hard it may be or if it takes years or whatever and  if everyones  not going to talk to me cause im busy??? or if i dont have MONEY!????? the person who really called was Jason and bill and maybe keith soo dont give me that crap bout ohh i thought u were busy type shit! or how bout this line.. "DONT JUDGE ME BLAH BLAH BLAH yet you talk bout the person while you hanging amonst your friends or whatever meanwhile that person in there mind is busy but still thinks bout you and may not think bad of you but u say negative bout them which i find really messed up and that person may  wonder how there doing. and when they have a day off which i really have none yet woudl call and see how there doing. and this topic is aobut one person its bout everyone with everyone else including myself!

bill left to do what he had to for himself, and to be honest i left to do what i had to do to at work because im not really home anymore neither.. its like im gone. soo say to yourself this one instead of thinking bad bout a person who is busy or doesnt see you be proud of wht there trying to do. i sure as hell is proud of everyone else that trys to succed in what they do. for onei want to see someone say wow eric your good at what u do and you can succeed..and go for you goald but no i never get that and never got that...