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Days drip by

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 23:37:03 GMT

I am so tired. I haven't exercised in a few days. Yesterday I ate some french fries and today I ate some cucumber slices. I thought about eating a lean cuisine but when I opened up the box - it disgusted me and I threw it away

xoxoxo

Monday, January 29, 2007

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 01:59:28 GMT

I have been away for so long.... life has been kind of f**ed up but I want to get my sh*t together. i'm a freak - so f**ing fat.. disgusting... i will not give up.. i refuse... i want it all...

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Wed, 29 Mar 2006 00:47:13 GMT

I'm really too tired to post. I haven't done super fab eating,
so tomorrow I'm fasting.

Monday, March 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 00:23:11 GMT

First confession time. I just binged
a little. I had 3 hamburger patties,
5 turkey sticks, one piece of dark
chocolate. I'm a little piggy.

I refuse to purge because I don't
want to get back into that cycle
(besides what I ate is not easy to
throw up).

I'm going to go weigh myself right
now to see how much I gained.
Nothing- good.

I start my new job tomorrow. I'm a liitle nervous to be honest.

Friday, March 24, 2006

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 11:36:37 GMT

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today is my last day at this job!!!!!!! Yeah, baby! I have to get my blood drawn this morning. My doctor said" you can't eat for 12 hours before the test" duh. like that's hard.

I am not going to really eat today because I'm supposed to party tonight. I am so excited.

I went outside this morning- it's freezing!!!

B: 1/2 c coffee w/ creamer (15 cal)
T: alcohol!!!!- lots of cals I know

Have a FAB FRIDAY!

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 11:20:58 GMT

I want a supermodel body. I will obtain it.

2 more days until I will end my reign at this crazy job. yesssssssssssssss!

B: turkey sausage +eggs- 200 cal, coffee w/ tsp of creamer - 25 cal
L: pistachios - 500 cal????
D: nothing

total: 725 cal

EDIT- Okay so today was a complete disaster. At work they decided to throw me a going away party- meaning FOOD. It was insane the amount of food that was brought in. And everyone is like EAT,EAT, EAT. I can't tell you how many times people were all over me. I was just like- I can't eat certain things. Well, then one person bought me a bag of pistachios- I love pistachios. I almost devoured the whole bag! Grrr. I also got a lucky bamboo- which I loved!

One more day!

skinny arms

collarbones

I want my puurse to be bigger than my entire body!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 11:44:53 GMT

So I lost another .5 lb from yesterday after weighing this morning. Today is going to be a busy day. I plan on walking at lunch.

B: coffee w/ tsp SF creamer- 25 cal
S: turkey sticks- 150 cal
L: 2 hamburger patties - 200 cal
D: protein bar- 150 cal

T: 525 cal

I'm so annoyed at myself. I was commenting. And the last person who commented (adriana lima icon)- I accidendently deleted! Sorry!

I wish my thighs were this nice.

dare

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 11:57:52 GMT

Augghh! I gained .5 lb from yesterday. The dinner went well. I had 1 pc of grilled chicken marsala and large helping of the salad. I ate one tiny bite of the carrot souffle and had a cup of coffee with some SF creamer. I certainly didn't have any Key Lime Pie! Today I am going to the gym to work off the .5 lb!
B: coffee w/ 1 tsp of SF creamer - 25 cal
L: turkey sticks- 150 cal, 2 hamburger patties - 200 D: pistachios- 250 cal? T: 625 cal

I'm downing a bottle of water now- I am so dehydrated!

Does anyone else have hair that is starting to fall out? In the shower this morning, I was like ewww!

Tomorrow- I'll be at least back to even! (weight)

7: 15 pm edit:

I just weighed myself- I lost the flippin 1/2 lb! Whoo-hoo.

Live skinny.

Monday, March 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 12:05:57 GMT

Monday... ugh.
This is my last week working for this company! Yeah!
B: turkey sausage- 100 cal
L: yougurt- 80 cal
D: salad - 150 cal, carrots- 80 cal?, chicken- 150 cal?

will edit later with actual damages...

I won't have time to go to the gym today.. so I gotta keep it as minimal as possible.

I wish everyone a fantastic week!

today's thinspo- KURKOVA...

I wish my stomach looked like this.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 22:28:46 GMT

Today has been kind of crazy.
B: the other 1/2 of the South Beach Pizza - 170 cal
L: protein bar - 150 cal, yougurt -80 cal, slice of turkey - 30 cal?

I wanted to just leave it at that for eating. But I was feeling very lightheaded and nauseas - so I ate 2 hamburger patties - 200 cal

Total: 630 cal

So- I'm having guests over for dinner tomorrow night and I'm cooking. This is what I am going to make: Arugula & Blue Cheese Salad, Carrot Souffle and Chicken with Pears and Marsala. I haven't figured out a dessert yet.

Per the recipes:
Salad per serving: 163 cal
Carrots per serving: ?
Chicken per serving- 195 cal

LIMAspo! So HOT!