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Name: Maggie May
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Birthday: 6/5/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: My interests are getting closer to Jesus and knowing him more and more because he is my world. Having a heart for teenagers that need a friend. I am here for anyone that needs someone to talk to
Expertise: Full-time youth pastor and counselor for teenagers after I graduate from CBC.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  ohdude17
Yahoo:  ccomets02
Member Since:
6/16/2004
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| To my friends near and far:I would like to apolize to you all those that I have talked to recently and those that I havne't talked to in a long time. There is a reason that you guys haven''t really heard from me in a while. I feel like I need to say sorry to some of you if not all of you. I have been pushing you all away. I have been afarid of being hurt by my friends. This summer I was really burnt bad by a friend. I have forgave that friend and everything is fine between us. However, I have allowed that to over take myself. I have let my past hurts with friends dictate my friendship now. I have been scaried of being hurt. I dont' want to get hurt. However, I have realize that today that everyone is human. And being hurt happens sometimes it is not intentional but it happens. And I hold back from my friendship because I am scared. There is no point in being scared of something could or couldn't hurt. It is no point in looking at the negative when everything is positive. I just want to thank you for your friendship. They really do mean the world to me. Everyday I really do thank God for your friendship. I never thought that I could find friendship like you guys. Friends that really do love and care about me and what I am doing. Thanks for your love, friendship, and prayers. | | |
| Disliking Yourself?Ever those moments when you just realize how much you really dislike yourself. That there are so many things that you really wish you could change and yet, you know that you can't. I just wish that one day we all could just get inside ourselves and take out all the junk we didn't like and replace it whith something that we did. However, I realize that would possibly be back two to think about being something all your life and to remove it. Well, last night as I laid in bed trying to sleep, I started thinking about all the things that I really shouldn't be thinking about when trying to good to bed. I got to think about how anyone would really like me and consider me a friend when I feel lik hating all that is in me. I know that this may sound like I am seeking your pity and attention but it is not. My friends keep trying me to express what I feel. So this is me, expressing what I feel. I just need to release some junk for last night as i tried to sleep. | | |
| So the summer is coming to an end. It is already August. School starts for some of you, work starts again for some, and some are starting a new adventure this year. I know what in 15 short and fast days, I will be starting an adventure that I have never done. I will be a wife. I am so scared, nervous, and excited. There is so much to being a wife. It is not just something that you become over night or a recipe that you can get out of a book. You become a wife through experiences, successes, and failures. This summer has made me take a long look at myself. Can I really do this? Can I be a wife? Not just a wife but a good one to Charles. My answer was no. However, every girl thinks that they will be a horrible wife because they have never been in a role like that. but I realized that if I just experience different thing, success or failure and learn from them. Being a wife will not be that hard. This summer I was so scared of failing Charles when it came to be being a wife. And Charles told me, "You haven't failed unless you stop trying."All I can do it try even if it turns out to fail. I know that there are still things I need to work on when it comes to myself but this summer has really make me take a look at who i am and what i can become with the help of God and those around me.
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| My heart...
Dear Charles,
I want to thank you for stick beside me through this last year. I have had my ups and downs. Mainly downs, for as far as I know. I have been a lot of extremes, happy one minute and sad the next. Yet, you have have walked beside me during those times. Your love for me didn't give up. You kept on loving me when I wasn't loveable. It is a wonderful feeling to know that there is someone who will walk beside you when you don't know if you have the strength to do it. Because you have been there, I have had the strength. To know that there is someone who will love you unconditionally, no matter what stupid thing you are doing know. Thank you for never giving up on me. When everyone told you to, you didn't listen to them. You don't know how blessed I am to have such a wonderful man in my life. Someone who isn't afarid to let me know the truth. Someone who will be as stubborn as I am. Someone who will allow me to be me. Someone who will tell me that I have the strength to tackle huge mountains. Thank you for being everything you are and more. You are a wonderful man and I am so blessed to have you in my life. Everyday, I love you more and more.
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| Ever watch a movie that was pretty much a wake up call. It was something that really made you think thoough things. Things that were never thought need to be look at because it was important. And then finally you look and everything seems to be in a different perpective. One that you never thought you would ever be in. Like seeing some hard things from the eyes of someone else. Realizing that there is a reason to their maddness. That life's circumstances have made them into the very person they are today. And sometime they keep you far away because they dont' want to damage you any more than you already are. I reallly understand now.
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