It's been a while since I last wrote but things sort of go nuts around the house on good days, n well...we havent exactly had too many good days since Shel died. Yet i have felt like a new person since the forth of July. I havent gone out really since my brother died and now i sort of gave up on him coming home...you just always hold onto what you have left when everything you love starts to fade...i guess the key is to keep your head up and let yourself be all that you have. Because you can't loose yourself, n if you do...nothing really matters after that anyway. on a brighter note, i finally am turing 16...a couple weeks n i'll be getting my permit. Ha just another reason to run away...it's sort of funny though, i was talkin to my friend tonight n i was explining im not the princess type, im not for thoes sweet innocent guys, n he asked me who i was for, i guess i never thought about it, but i'm not really for anyone, i'm for my friends n family n thats all...i'm ganna be a lonley ol' lady with lots of cats LOL, too bad im allergic to cats