b..re.a....k.t.....hr...o............u....g.h
That would be me -- I broke through. I almost feel like I was suffocating and didn't realize it until I was supplied with something other than my givens at the time. Granted, it was a voluntary decision initially, I'm glad I had enough sense to get myself out *pat on the back*. So, I'm wicked excited to be out of this rut & I thought it was worth dusting off my little xanga blog thing over here and making a somewhat public declaration, when unbeknownst to me, no one's around???? Seriously, where is everyone on this thing?
This is definitely the beginning of my end. This is what I'm supposed to be doing. I know it. I don't know why I've been neglecting something that feels so natural to me. I'm so anxious that I'm doing cartwheels in my head. I feel high. A new high I've gotten on life. GOD certainly has provided me with an incredible new outlook and all the new things that lay ahead. HALLELUJAH! AMEN! PRAISE THE LORD! Everything is just so exhilarating. AHHH! 
They say the hardest part is getting yourself out of denial. Check.
Now. How do I put myself back together again?