I'm not doing this anymore. It's not worth it to me, not anymore. I hate it all. It's retarded and makes no sense. To the girls with real disorders, just get off of Xanga because it's not helping you in any way, shape or form. Just get off of it. If you don't want help in curing your disease, then do it in private. I realized that this is a private thing and it's not about 'supporting' one another. How can you say that? When someone doesn't eat for a week, then it's "GREAT intake!!! I'm so jealous..." and then when they break the fast it's, "Aww there's always tomorrow!" And all of these challenges and competetions...it's ridiculous!
And as for the ana fakers...you're pathetic. Why fake this? Why pretend? Stop posting pictures of yourself. If you think you look disgusting, why are you showing the world? You're fishing for compliments and don't lie to yourself because no one buys it. People are looking at your pictures to find shock value, that's it. It's so fashionable to be thin, yes, but not to be anorexic---the REAL anoretics understand this concept. At those sites, you'll see no "pro ana" this and thats, pictures of themselves at so-and-so-weight and etc. You'll find stories and experiences and...knowledge. Just because you count your calories doesn't mean you have a real eating disorder. Don't call it EDNOS if you aren't diagnosed. You fast then binge then eat normally then fast and so on and so forth...that's just weird eating. I'm sick to freaking death of the fakers.
And I understand how it all works, too. The things that no one ever says. When "outside" girls ask about it and express concern, they just... "dont understand" and it's dismissed as ignorance. And then when someone supports you, it's "THANKS!" But when someone asks for help, it's "Don't do this...it's so sad...." and then the whole speech comes about how fucked up your childhood was and how bad parents are.
Yeah. We got it. Everyone's parents contribute to fucked-upedness. ITS HOW IT WORKS. You're not special. I'm sure 85% of you have real problems, I'm not shitting on that. I just hate that you think you can blame it on this or that without proof. It's irritating.
I'm not saying I'm any better than any of you but this is the last ana xanga I'll ever, ever create. It's all selfish and attention-grabbing and petty. You don't wanna eat? FINE. Don't. I don't care how much weight you lose or if you think I look pretty. Not anymore. And you shouldn't either. I usually stay away from the "Shoulds" and "shouldnts" but being my end-all post, I might as well say how I'm feeling it. STOP. Stop encouraging it. YOU ARE A BAD FRIEND IF YOU DO. You're telling your friends to kill themselves. It's stupid. Don't be around if you're in recovery. Just don't. You'll have issues with yourself and maybe you'll actually get to deal with them, rather than have them inhanced by your "friends" on your secret ana site.
IT'S ALL SELFISH AND HURTFUL. YOU ARE A BAD FRIEND IF YOU ENCOURAGE IT.
I don't know any of you. I know two of you in real life, and I love being your friends. But I'm not encouraging it anymore. No more brownie points from me. As for the rest of you, I couldn't give a shit if you think this post is rude or insensitive. I'll never, ever see you or hear from you again. Ever. We aren't friends. A lot of you are really, really nice but...I'm not going to surround myself with it anymore. It's the cause of 90% of relapses. For me, anyway. And I won't do it anymore. You go ahead with your lives and Xangas but this is my goodbye. Good luck to the real ones and to the fakers, get over yourselves. | 
