- so yeah...not much to update on i guess...

- well i got offered a job at granite city by one of my old managers who i used to work at green mill with, so i figured that i should jump on that opportunity. i could make some mega bucks over there. i am still going to be working at bennigan's of course, but only a few days a week. i figured a second restaurant would spice things up a bit. it's so different over there though, things are run in a totally different way, but i guess it works well for them...im just finishing up my training over there. now i just have my follows to do and my first shifts by myself and i should be good to go....

- i still have to find an apartment too. it totally sucks having to move. im not looking forward to it at all. and its hard accepting the fact that your roommates dont want to live with you anymore, but i guess its sort of a two way street with that one in this situation. it just sucks seeing your two roommates (one of which who used to be your good friend) be all happy that they are getting their own place, and constantly hang out like they are the best of friends...while im closing my self off in my room and feeling left out. i mean seriously i think it is really mean when you invite one roommate to your birthday dinner and not the other. i know that was like in the winter...but im still bitter about it..that was totally a slap in my face..whatever..i should just get over it..but there are just so many hard feelings.. im kind of looking forward to living by myself, but in a way not. it may be kind of lonely at times but yet again i can do whatever i want and not have to worry about anyone else. im going to try to find a place where i can have a cat though. i need to keep myself amused somehow...

- hmmm....still thinking about getting some more piercings...but all the ones i want my parents would hate...but does that really matter? meh..i dont know...

- blah...blah...blah...im bored.... 

Okay new post...

- I got the industrial on my ear yesterday!! yay!! I feel so bad ass now haha... but for real it looks way cool. Ya it hurt, but it guess it was tolerable. Two piercings like that at the same time is never going to be too pleasant.

- So yeah I'm still trying to figure out what to do about work. I was getting really sick of Bennigan's and was going to quit. But now I think that I'm going to stay there and just get a second job so I don't have to be there like 24/7. If that were the case I would go absolutely crazy. So I figured that I would apply at a few places in the mall. I think Pacsun or Journeys or Bath and Body Works would be fun to work at. I don't want to go back to Wet Seal. So I'm gonna try to get all of that figured out this week. If I don't get hired, then I'll just get another restaurant job. I just have one final on Tuesday and then I'm done with school!! However, I am taking one summer class. But it shouldn't be so bad.

- I hope that I have a good summer. This has probably been the weirdest year I have ever had. There has been so much drama with friends and family and school, it has just been ridiculous. I entered the year with pretty much the same friends from last year. But after realizing who people really are...I've lost a few which I think has been for the better. I shouldn't have to feel like I need to work to keep my friends, they should just be there...And then there was the whole relationship issue to deal with. Well for the first time in my life I was fine with being single and just doing my own thing. So then someone comes along and literally sweeps me off my feet only for it to end in misery 3 months later, with barely any explaination at all....I think that is the worst way for things to end. It's the hardest on me because I don't want to be left upset and confused. So I'm still trying to get over that. It's so amazing to me how a person can act so close to you one day, and then the next you are a wall. It is so horrible to be treated like that. It just leaves you feeling like shit mostly, but then there is also the anger and confusion that goes along with it. Sometimes I miss him...but sometimes I just wish I never met him. Now the anger is just setting in and I don't even want to see him ever again...

- One thing that I have realized this year is that people aren't always who you think they are. I always put myself out there and put everything I can into a relationship or even a friendship and sometimes I am just left in the dust. I guess that will happen though. Every relationship in life isn't always 100 percent on either side. However, I believe strongly that everything happens for a reason. Months later I will understand why something didn't work out the way I wanted it to. At this point I'm only moving forward in my life. I won't forget the things that have happened to me in the past but I need to learn from them, and take those lessons with me throughout everyday.

- Alright, thats enough of reflecting about the year...I think the summer will be good and I'm looking forward to it...

- Later

i got my teeth whitened today at the dentist!! whoot whoot! my teeth went up six shades. can you believe that? its just crazy!! so yeah now im all glamified for the summer with my new pearly whites...its just what i needed to pep me up!    so yeah there isn't too much else to update on i guess. same old stuff...i bought the system of a down "hypnotize" album the other day. that is a really sweet cd. ive been jamming out in my car like everyday. well thats all for now..

if any of you want to party/chill/talk u should give me a call!!

okay for real, does anyone ever go on this thing anymore?? jeez.. i thought i would update to the few of you who may actually still read xanga. but like my updates are that exciting anyway. well let's see...i finally got my ears pierced...woohoo..i know, what an accomplishment..haha, not really. so yeah now im pretty sure that i am going to get an industrial on my ear. i think it would look pretty sweet. i mean hey i need something to show off my wild side. school is school..im excited for it to be done, but not really because it doesn't even really seem like i have been is school this semester, since im only taking like 4 classes. but o well. the fall is definately going to be alot tougher so im enjoying it while i can. this weekend im going to theta chi's formal. that should be pretty fun. i can't wait. but yeah besides that there really isnt anything else i guess. im still trying to cope with being "let go" by yet another guy after only 3 months. blah...blah...blah..i am getting so tired of that happening. fricken a...i just go for all of the wrong guys. so yeah now i conveniently have relationship issues to trouble me with for the spring and summer. oh can anything ever work out how i want it to?? the answer to that is apparently not..i guess i will just have to see what happens. but is just sucks so bad when you miss someone so much, and all you want is to be with them and you know you cant. sucky, sucky, sucky...im going to stop the relationship talk because i will end up going into a big thing about it and i will spare you all hahahha.....but in the meantime i will just try to enjoy life being single..at least i have my health right? haha

peace out

Ahh..spring break is almost here. Yay! I need a break so bad. In about two weeks I will traveling to Florida!!! Woo hoo!!! I can't to put my feet in the sand and swim the ocean. Oh it is going to be so glorious! If I wasn't going anywhere I know that I would just be working my ass off at Bennigan's and that would have just made me crabby. So it's good that I'm getting out of town...So yeah I guess there isn't much else to update. Things are pretty much the same..there is school and Bennigan's..blah, blah..

Oh here is a new thought.....I have been thinking about getting my eyebrow pierced. And yeah I know, I know my ears aren't even pierced yet..and that is gay..but I am going to get them done after spring break....So what do you all think? Should I get my eyebrow done or not?? I kind of just have this urge to make a funky statement, but then again I don't want it to have the possibility of looking bad....hmmmm.... You guys are going to have to help me out on this one hahaha...Later